Ever since I came back from my first doctor's appointment, I've been really depressed. Basically I need to get a few months RLE before starting HRT. The issue is that I am stuck with this as I am still living with my mom. The whole point of me starting HRT while still in the closet was so that my mom wouldn't be able to prevent me from transitioning by emotionally abusing me due to her ignorance. Last week she flipped when she discovered I was wearing makeup, even though it was nothing feminine at all! I feel like the only way I'll be able to get RLE is by sneaking in my wigs, makeup, girl clothes etc. into my car and finding some abandoned place to go change at since I can't do it at home. There is so much stress and anxiety around RLE too. What if I see someone I know? What if someone recognizes me? What if they realize I'm trans? I already have social anxiety in boy mode, so I feel like just being myself as a girl would boost my confidence, but also push me on the edge of an emotional break down. I hate to admit it, but if I was attacked I probably wouldn't be able to defend myself since I don't have anyone I could tag along with while having RLE. Do you guys have any advice on how to start getting RLE while still living at home or being in the closet? What were some of the first places you went? What are the safest places to go? Should I attempt working out and running outside? How can I brush off or prevent potential discrimination?