So I made the decision I want to transition. I have conflicting feelings about it. I've known I wished I was born the opposite sex since I can remember. I just kind of ignored the feelings about it because I wasn't born that way and because I went through male puberty and to me I felt like that ship had passed. Well I started dabbling in make up and stuff, I still feel like its too bold to call myself or anyone else that's transitioning a "woman." I feel uncomfortable talking about my feelings of wanting to transition. I think about FTM transitions and I don't feel the same way though. Its just the woman thing. I'm so flattered to be called a woman but I don't feel like that I deserve it. I understand the idea of being "gender fluid" and stuff. But the fact that I can't go through the same thing other women do - periods, childbirth - is discouraging and also my body frame which thankfully isn't too large but is still a bit boxy and my skin is naturally soft and supple which I'm thankful for. I haven't started HRT but really want to if nothing else, I haven't seen a gender therapist, which sounds absolutely dreadful. Any thoughts of support or ideas from more knowledgeable people is greatly appreciated.
