Thanks for sharing all that info.
I was either in deep denial or too clueless to get where all signs pointed for almost my whole life. Like so many others, at 50 I was in deep depression and approaching self harm as well.
I can say the change since starting therapy and HRT has been night and day. My wife is not excited about me transitioning but is so relieved I am better and says she likes the person I have become better.
....it does make sense.
On another note. It looks like you might have created a second account here. It is against the policies of the site to have two active accounts. If this is the case, and you are cool with it, I will remove the one with no posts. Just drop me a line on this thread or if you reach 15 posts, private message me.
With warmth,
Joanna