If you want to begin transition then you need to take a leap of faith and do it for yourself and not put barriers in your way.
Finding a clinic to help assist your transition can be challenging and sufficiently expensive, but If you really are depressed your find away to make it happen. Personly I travel 80 miles to my gender clinic and that is only a one-way trip, without their help I would be depressed and more likely dead. Make a day trip off it and see someplace new with friends, it's a great excuse for a day out and friends can really help. You need to ask yourself how important is this to you ?.
Sadly we all compare our selfs to others that we see on social media sites, this is not a healthy behavior and is pretty much-causing depression across many countries for everyone including cis folk. Many women including trans-women use photoshop and only take post the good photos from angles that make you appear prettier. For instance, try changing the camera angle downwards at your face it will appear for round, lots of trans-women do this trick. Many of these women have had facial surgery but they would never tell you this and even plan deny it. Sadly some people have more money than others and some don't such as myself but you know we save up and the reward is greater. My tip avoid the social sites and get out there and meet people, I rather a cuppa at friend's house than sit behind a screen. it takes time to transition but you would get there in time.
Transitioning does have an effect on your sexual orientation, but try not to be close-minded to the idea, trans-women are women just they may just have the wrong genitals so if you identify as an women then you may be a lesbian. If you get an urge to have intercourse with a trans-women then give it a try it's rather enjoyable and your learn something about yourself. Hell when I started the thought of a penis was like eww yuk and now well it is more along the line of I really want to play with one, I even find a few men attractive now such as Gary Sinise,Michael Socha and Taylor Lautner , I even have pictured my wife as a male sometimes and she loves it.
Finally it is not your psychologist who gets to choice, its your life live it before it is too late.
