From the perspective of being a month and a half full-time, I can totally relate. I still get my WFT moments frequently, when I wonder if transition is crazy and maybe life would be simpler if I had just tried to stay male. But I have learned to come to my senses quickly.
I remind myself of what is real. The insistence of the urge to cross-dress was real. Knowing that it would never go away is real. The feeling of wearing a disguise, both physical and emotional, when I dressed male was real. The feeling of joy when I go out dressed as me and looking beautiful (okay, I'm bit biased) is real. Life being simpler when I pretended to be male was not real.
Quote from: 2.B.Dana on June 11, 2017, 06:11:15 PM
I try very hard to talk myself out of all this and that is a quick route to a slide into the depression ditch. If I begin thinking about where I am in the process and what's coming up I get bouyant again and happy. I read one woman's article and she said if you weren't scared sh*tl*ss about transitioning then you hadn't thought it through well enough.
You have summed it up very well.
When I started on this road, I was told to "follow the joy". At the time, I had no idea how to do that, having never experienced any. But now I know what joy feels like, and I feel it when I get to be myself every day.