3.5 months before turning 52. 5.5 months in and the peace of mind since starting HRT has changed, and probably saved, my life. The constant baseline anger and lifelong depression for unknown (until recently) reasons were taking their toll.
I have a LOT of factors between what I want and what is possible, so I do the little things that I can to express myself such as:
1) Sitting to p
2) Wearing girl clothes that can be over looked (jeans, sweaters, etc)
3) HRT (Estradiol and Spiro)
4) Losing weight and taking better care of myself
5) Using women's products where I can (deodorant, etc)
6) Being around other women (trans and cis) who accept me for me. This is very important to me as I was mostly socialized as male growing up. There is a LOT of body language and verbal characteristics that I need to learn.
Currently these things are making me happy. I am at peace as a "resting" state for the first time in my life, as opposed to "hey, I found peace!" for a bit.
If anyone is curious about my story, my intro can be found here:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,244130.0.htmlIt could be said that my path to understanding was delayed due to outside influences. I am glad I eventually got here.
Ricki