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Im just trying to be specific to finally have some clarity.
It's a lot on my plate you know, how can I give an answer I don't have? and the appointment is coming up soon, in one weeks time I have to really make up my mind, drop the hammer, either I am a boy... or I am a girl, not much about this whole definition actually matters to me, as a girl I'm still going to go into the dudes section of walmart and pick out hoodies, as a boy I'm still going to go to the toy isle and pick out adorable "cute" themed toys...
I hold the door open for either boys or girls ..
I'm never putting my jacket in a puddle of mud because
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any guy that mentions my breasts, ass or vagina ...especailly the vagina I really just don't want to associate with, Id rather forget that the vag even exists on my body cause to me its
<language not allowed> weird... and I guess it would be cool? to have a penis? I dono if it came out right then ya ...
but it's not a collectors item its the thing I use to go to the bathroom...
oh yeah, going to the bathroom... I still feel super comfy in womans bathroom can't even piss in a boys washroom ...I think I managed to do so once while I was sure everyone was gone completely.
I am absolutely NOT okay with being bald... I would rather tweeze my entire face of facial hair now than that... which is starting to happen, and I really don't want to be cuddling with rogaine until SOME kind of hair grows back..
<language not allowed>i can wear makeup if my face is completely shaven but if my face has any hair on it...I just don't like the outcome.
I admit running with my binder on is such a free feeling, no breasts jiggling around I can just run without worrying...
but then when I look into a full length mirror dressed up as a female again I love the curves and figure that comes out.
I fantasies about who I will end up with in my future and as a girl, the fantasies just seem so much more romantic... me having my first kiss with a girl I like or in the arms of an Irish lad ...or waking up first in the morning sitting on the porch of a Japanese home greeting the sunrise with a cup of instant coffee.
boys make me shy but girls make me more shy.
I gotta say as a male the jokes are spoken with more confidence, so they seem to come out better for me I'm able to make new friends in a snap as a male. I haven't tried yet but I'm sure I would have more charisma on my YouTube channel as a boy since my jokes come out more smoothly.
maybe if I shave my head completely bald? ...
but meanwhile my friend is throwing the big questions at me, telling me i NEED to tell my doctor and verdict, I need to be honest I need this i need that BUT IT'S NOT LIKE I'M BEING DISHONEST I'M JUST CONFUSED.
it's sad that a chocolate egg is more sure of itself than I am these days...
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