HRT is working - seven calm days in a row

[barbara1962]

     I had written earlier that I had a peaceful day at work and attributed it to the HRT kicking in at last. Well, now it's been 7 days in a row in spite of all the usual trials and tribulations of everyday living and working. The E and Spiro have apparently changed my emotional outlook in a very positive manner. I feel really great about myself. I wish I had started transitioning years ago. Although I can't possibly go full time right now, I am going to shift the way I present on weekends from androgynous to "tomboy" by adding more makeup to the mix. I have been much too cautious up to now. The worst that can happen is that I could be "read". That is bound to happen at some time anyway. It happens to all of us, doesn't it? To twist a cliché a bit - faint heart never became fair lady (sorry). Buffalo is going to meet Barbara!   

[Shellie Hart]

I felt wonderful (and peaceful) for several weeks when I first started HRT. It was a bit of a "high" I guess. But it wore off after awhile unfortunately. I feel great in other ways now simply because HRT (after 2 1/2 years) has formed my body into a nice female shape that makes me happy in other ways. It all depends on the individual it seems...

[Michelle_P]

I loved that calm sensation when it first appeared. 

Several weeks into HRT I started experiencing these calm periods, at first for several hours, and then for days.  It was amazing.  The irritation that I had felt, sort of like the buzzing of a beehive, but not an audible hallucination or anything, just a constant background agitation, had been present and intensifying for decades.  When it vanished at first I didn't recognize the change, beyond feeling really good, really calm, and able to drop into my daily meditation in seconds instead of 10-20 minutes of trying to calm and center myself.

I THINK this corresponded to the big drop in Testosterone levels.  As my Estradiol levels rose I had an improvement in mood and energy, also appreciated, but the fading of this odd 'alarm' state from the back of my mind is the most significant, critical mental change I got from HRT.

This was the change that told be I was on the right path, that I could survive after all.