Quote from: Lynne on December 11, 2018, 02:05:11 PM
The highest of my highs definitely require effort. But I don't really know what would be my natural range because I tried so hard to be male for a long time, I think I subconsciously 'trained' my voice to be lower than what would be natural for me. There are moments when I'm really feeling good about myself and my voice is higher than usual but still not strained.
My psychotherapist and I talked about this today. We came to the conclusion, that my voice is the only real sour of dysphoria I have left. And she said that many rather feminin men try to be extra male by training their voice to a level as low as they can get, in order to prove their masculinity. I did the same, I tried to be so low that it almost hurt my throat.
she told me the best start for ditching this is trying to watch that one does not go that low, and from there on trying to raise the voice to a natural pitch. We just have to unlearn the bad male behavior, because we don't need to pound our chest anymore (will hurt anyway once the boobs are bigger).
I checked myself a little, I basically do not have a chest resonance, the lowest my resonance is, is somewhere around the voice box or a bit below. When I talk to have a chest resonance, my throat hurts pretty fast.