2.5 years T, almost no changes?

[AmbiE]

Hello! I'm not sure where to begin since I've never asked for help in this way but I guess I'll start with background.

I'm a 20 y/o trans man who's been on T for more than 2 years (923 days to be exact) and I've seen almost no physical changes. I've always been told that the biggest changes on T happen within the first 2 years but the most I've seen is some hair growth (couple of chest hairs and maybe 6 beard hairs if I'm lucky) and "down there" growth. That's about it. I still look very feminine and sound fairly feminine (I've always had a deeper voice so this I'm not too worried about). I've talked to my doctor about this and they say to not worry- testosterone levels are where they should be- but I cant help it. I havent seen anyone having a similar problem and I cant help but ask what's wrong with me? I spent years trying to get T and now I'm spending years waiting for /something/ to come from it. In all honesty, my dysphoria has never been worse and I've never felt more disgusted with myself. Will I ever look masculine? Is it just poor genetics? I'm not sure how much longer I can wait. I feel horrible. I'm only 5 feet tall so presenting myself as male feels nearly impossible.  What do I do

[Northern Star Girl]

@AmbiE
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[Northern Star Girl]

@AmbiE
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[LizK]

Hi  Ambie

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[StacyRenee]

I understand your feelings, though in the opposite direction. I haven't been on hormones as long as you, just over two years (754 days to be exact, lol). With MTF, voice doesn't change, nor do we lose facial hair. And unless hormones are started very young, hips will never widen. About all we get to look forward to in softer skin, softening of facial features, less body hair, and boobs.

I've gotten a little bit of each of them. The most profound is finer, less obvious body hair. Boobs are rather disappointing so far. I think about a 40A is all I've gotten. Everyone says to give it time, but others around me are advancing at a more reasonable rate (one girl is probably a 36C after just a year).

YMMV (Your Milage May Vary) is often thrown around. But I think it boils down to the fact that the physicians that administer our hormones don't have a clear cut method. Each seems to have a different target number or dosing regimen. Until more research is done, it's all just a guessing game.

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[Kylo]

What's your weight. If you are overweight, lose some - excess weight gives a rounder face and rounder faces generally look more feminine. The same can be said for the rest of the body, more curves = more feminine look. Visible jawlines etc. are subconsciously 'masculine' features, these are hidden if a person is overweight.

You didn't mention beard growth. Do you have any at this point. If not, try minoxidil twice daily on the beard area.

Are you working out. To obtain a masculine look, upper body and shoulder workouts offset a pair of female hips.

Train yourself to use the deeper end of your voice in conversation, you said you already have a voice on the low end.

There are loads of short trans men, nothing unusual about that, the masculine presentation comes from training and curating aspects of the body. I have a feminine face with naturally long eyelashes but getting to an ideal weight and getting fit aided the blood flow to the skin that allowed for a fuller beard coverage. I also used minox to get it going. If you've got the leg and arm hair and chest hairs growing and got the D growth you have sufficient T in your body. You might just be a slow starter.

Can't overstress the importance of losing weight though when transitioning, it improves blood flow for beards and the angular look of the body in general. 

[skipulus]

Have you seen your T levels?
What are they?
Are your doctors experienced in treating trans males?
You said it was a struggle to get on T in the first place, why?
Have you tried getting a second opinion?

I need more information to be able to comment.

Doctors can be wrong, it happens, it is ok to check that.