My old "lost" blog was titled Creating Ellen's New Life. That new life started five years ago. On, January 5, 2021, the love of my life for over 40 years died from mucosal melanoma. It was the worst day of my life. Going through her things deciding what to keep and what to donate to charity was one of the hardest tasks I have ever done. I also had my planned GCS surgery less than a month after she died. Going though that alone was extremely difficult as I did not have anyone to talk to.
I have gone through a lot these past five years, however, looking back on these past five years I see a lot of positive points. After 45 years of working in the international fright transportation industry I decided to retire. I have traveled (nine different cruises and multiple other trips); made new friends, have done volunteer work for different charities. I also went on the dating apps and now have a boyfriend who has moved in with me. Overall, my new life is a good life.
I have never stopped thinking about Diane. Especially at this time of year, with her birthday being Dec. 21st, the fact she loved Christmas. I consider my self lucky in that fact that my last words to Diane was "I love you." On the morning of the 5th, I got up as usual to got to work (I worked from home) and she was awake, so I helped her get comfortable and then kissed he on the forehead and said I love you. I then had my breakfast and took the dogs out for their morning walk. When we returned she was dead.
I am writing this to remind all of us that life is short. That we need to make the most of our lives when we can. And most importantly, tell those in our lives how we feel about them. You never know when the last time you will get a chance to do so.
To Diane, I will never stop loving you.
Ellen
