Finally getting thing going. I think I mentioned I had gone to the t-shirt exhibit at the VA. It is the veterans expressing the abuse on the t-shirt and then hug on a clothes line.
After the exhibit, I went and got some walk in therapy in the mental health building. I think I have been dealing with my mother feeling she was abused, and I am punished for the abuse someone else did. In the therapy session, I expressed the feeling of being the abuser and the abused. I think I sent a message to the therapist to show the embarrassment of having to shower with a group of men when I have breasts.
Learning to not give the automatic feeling fine when the nurse asks how I'm feeling. I complained about my hip and back pain at my annual VA visit. I filled out a questionnaire about my back and got x-rays of my hips the same day. And I now have an appointment with the chiropractor next month. Plus I have more psychiatric therapy later this month. I actually stated that I don't want to mess up my estrogen appointment with feeling that I don't deserve to have estrogen.
Michelle
