Sarah, it is so easy to fall into despair for some many reasons. Everyone has stuff that they are dealing with but you can't let it overwhelm you. I really believe that joy, even simple ones are all around us. Sometimes it takes a little work, but it is always worth it. Whining, briefly, is just a relief valve that we all as friends, listen to in sympathy.
Petunia, I know that it is a compromise, but you are right, I choose it and I can always change the decision. Like all compromises, the decision comes with sacrifices but I feel they are worth it to. I like laughing with her every day!
Danielle, you helped me from the beginning. You gave me my first hug here and it meant a lot. You were also a role model because you showed me that I could transition. Thank you for all that and more. I treasure my relationship with my wife. I accept that it comes with a cost. I really appreciate that you all tolerate the occasional whining that happen when the cost of compromising becomes a little painful. It's good to have the shoulders of a friends.
HUGE HUG TO ALL,
Emma