Lauren's Lair: Here be dragons...

[Sephirah]

Thank you, Charlotte. What you just said means probably more than you will know.

Thank you.

Girl, I am not an angel, though, Probably why I get you so much. We are all broken together. I envy you that you feel you can show your dark side.

I just freak people out and make them terrified. My own fault, I guess.

Thank you though, for caring. <3 You know I think you're an amazing lady. Charlotte. <3

Is it too greedy to see more of Serana?

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Thank you, Charlotte. What you just said means probably more than you will know.

Thank you.

Girl, I am not an angel, though, Probably why I get you so much. We are all broken together. I envy you that you feel you can show your dark side.

I just freak people out and make them terrified. My own fault, I guess.

Thank you though, for caring. <3 You know I think you're an amazing lady. Charlotte. <3

Is it too greedy to see more of Serana?

Awww hun you don't freak me out and of course all the others on here. I do certainly know that some people struggle with difference or witnessing intense emotion, so theh provably do freak. But even then its probably more a processing limitation for them.

Thank you for caring too. Everyones help here is slowly connecting the dots!

Ill post some more Serana in my blog although i cant post her pic without her bikini on 😄

[Sephirah]

Awww hun you don't freak me out and of course all the others on here. I do certainly know that some people struggle with difference or witnessing intense emotion, so theh provably do freak. But even then its probably more a processing limitation for them.

Thank you for caring too. Everyones help here is slowly connecting the dots!

Ill post some more Serana in my blog although i cant post her pic without her bikini on 😄

Haha, I wouldn't dream of asking, Charlotte. The colours just vibe with me. She is the embodiment of IDGAF, and I love that.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Haha, I wouldn't dream of asking, Charlotte. The colours just vibe with me. She is the embodiment of IDGAF, and I love that.

Awwww thats very much her for sure. I've uploaded more of her! BTW do you know of the Manga / Anime Beastars? She reminds me of the gorgeous Juno in beastars! I'm about as jealous and dysfunctional as Juno so I love her!

[Stottie Girl]

Thank you, Charlotte. What you just said means probably more than you will know.

Thank you.

Girl, I am not an angel, though, Probably why I get you so much. We are all broken together. I envy you that you feel you can show your dark side.

I just freak people out and make them terrified. My own fault, I guess.

Thank you though, for caring. <3 You know I think you're an amazing lady. Charlotte. <3

Is it too greedy to see more of Serana?

You don't freak people out Lauren. Not one bit.

You put far too much on yourself, Nobody expects anything of you on here. We just like to talk with you because we love you, we value what you say but you don't have to be anything you aren't. There is no pressure to be someone else from people on here.

It's ok to not feel positive and chirpy all the time. We've all had our moments on here and at home.

Sarah xxx

[Sephirah]

You are right, Sarah, I do. I don't... know how to be any other way, though. I think I expect way too much of myself, maybe.

I want to see everyone else smile and don't really care if it comes at the cost of a scream. I know that's messed up. I am trying to work on it though.

I think... I am scared to let people see the other part of me. I am a volcano under a glacier. Each time there is the slightest fart.... people get hurt. So I rely on the snow, I suppose.

[Stottie Girl]

You are right, Sarah, I do. I don't... know how to be any other way, though. I think I expect way too much of myself, maybe.

I want to see everyone else smile and don't really care if it comes at the cost of a scream. I know that's messed up. I am trying to work on it though.

I think... I am scared to let people see the other part of me. I am a volcano under a glacier. Each time there is the slightest fart.... people get hurt. So I rely on the snow, I suppose.

I've seen glimpses Lauren and you're just as beautiful. Perhaps even more so. I mean that.

[Sephirah]

Yeah you have. I kind of want to say sorry for that but my face is too red, haha.

Love you, Sarah. <3

[Sephirah]

Awwww thats very much her for sure. I've uploaded more of her! BTW do you know of the Manga / Anime Beastars? She reminds me of the gorgeous Juno in beastars! I'm about as jealous and dysfunctional as Juno so I love her!

I don't but I did a quick search, Charlotte. I can see a somewhat similarity. Juno doesn't have that epic colour scheme though. I mean, she doesn't have nearly enough purple and blue!

[Emma1017]

"I am not this angel some seem to think I am. I am human like everyone else. I hurt, I break. I have bad days. I can't grow flowers with every step."

Laura, growing crap grass occasionally as you step is totally ok, too!!! As one of my best friends told me, that I think is true of you:

"But it takes a special person to be dealing with so much and yet still have time for others. To go out of your way to want the best for them. To make them feel better. Everything you're going through... things that would break other people... but you still have it within you to be there for others. To be a source of kindness and strength. That is a very, very rare thing in this world. It's something precious. And something you need to see, and understand. However hard things might be... You have it inside you to deal with it, sweetie. You do. You have the depth of emotion... the compassion... the strength and gentleness of who you are."

Well, it takes one to know one.

Warmest hug,

Emma
❤️

[Stottie Girl]

"I am not this angel some seem to think I am. I am human like everyone else. I hurt, I break. I have bad days. I can't grow flowers with every step."

Laura, growing crap grass occasionally as you step is totally ok, too!!! As one of my best friends told me, that I think is true of you:

"But it takes a special person to be dealing with so much and yet still have time for others. To go out of your way to want the best for them. To make them feel better. Everything you're going through... things that would break other people... but you still have it within you to be there for others. To be a source of kindness and strength. That is a very, very rare thing in this world. It's something precious. And something you need to see, and understand. However hard things might be... You have it inside you to deal with it, sweetie. You do. You have the depth of emotion... the compassion... the strength and gentleness of who you are."

Well, it takes one to know one.

Warmest hug,

Emma
❤️

I wonder whose quote that is......

You're special to all of us Lauren, that quote can absolutely be turned around back on you.

[Emma1017]

Lauren, love your new avatar!!!

[Sephirah]

AWOOOOOoooooooo

<3

Thank you.

[Sephirah]

Just to let anyone who cares know. I won't be here next week. But not because I am usually not here in the week, haha.

I will be in hospital... again. This time it's quite a big deal, though. Well... to me anyway.

I don't like talking about this stuff because in my head it just reads as "Woe-is-me. No one cares. Shut up."

But... yeah, I don't really have any people in my life to talk to, really. Outside of the people I've met here. But I don't really like doing that because everyone comes here with their own stuff.

I just... yeah. It will all be okay. But just in case it matters why I am not here... that's why. I figured I should say something.

[Lori Dee ✅]

Thanks for the heads up, Lauren.

Sending you lots of love, hugs, and healing thoughts.

Check back with us when you can.

Love you big bunches!

[Alana Ashleigh]

Good luck, Lauren.

Sending love, and good vibes

[Sephirah]

Good luck, Lauren.

Sending love, and good vibes

Thank you, Alana. Girl, you are someone else who inspires me to be better. So many people here do, It's quite crazy.

Keep running, okay? And remember how far you have come. I will always be your cheerleader. Love you, girl. <3

[Sephirah]

I just want to say thanks to some folks... because I am kind of so uhm... sh*t scared. That I want to get it out while I can.

@Dances With Trees... Anni, you kept me grounded in me. You are a comfort blanket I never knew I needed.

@Pema you called me out for just how horrible I can be. I need to hear that. I need to be better. Hopefully I will do that.

@Stottie Girl.. Sarah... I think you're the best thing since sliced Jesus.

@Charlotte Kitty see above. For a long time Susan's didn't really have its own Spice Girls. The influx of Brit girls is... it makes me smile. Not to say anything against our US overlords, though.

@Emma1017... thank you. Just... thank you.

@Lori Dee you really only have to mention your name in hushed annals. Thank you for being my friend. There should be a breakfast cereal named after you.

@Alana Ashleigh You make me proud.

@Sarah B thank you for believing in me.

@Northern Star Girl Thank you for believing in everyone, Danielle.

I know there are a lot of people I've missed. I am sorry.

I don't even know why I am saying this other than... I am kind of scared right now. That... it might be the last time I can. So I want you to know that... this place has been part of my life for the better part of 20 years. I think I might have been fortunate enough to meet probably all the best people in the world here, in that time.

If I don't get another chance to say it. Thank you.

[Sephirah]

Oh, also...

@ChrissyRyan... you are one of the most beautiful lights in the world.

@tgirlamg Ashley... you light up the world. You make everyone feel more than. Thank you.

It's well after 5am here so..

Just thank you. Hopefully I'll see you on the other side. <3

[Dances With Trees]

Love you, Lauren.

See you when you get back.