Lauren's Lair: Here be dragons...

[Stottie Girl]

Did you get it again this morning Lauren?

I obviously tempted fate and had recurring nightmares! Serves me right ha ha!

[davina61]

If I wake while dreaming it messes with my head, short nap fixes it like a brain reboot.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

There is a phenomenon called "false awakening" (Something like that) I had it once or twice when I was suffering work stress. I think it either is or is similar to lucid dreaming. I only ever had it happen in a loop once though normally I just snapped awake when I realised I was still dreaming. It doesn't happen anymore. Maybe you have something playing on your mind?

Oh that's a weird one. Had it a few times. Once I'd killed someone and hid the body in a pond by a road. I thought I'd woke up then terrified as I'd done this and it wasn't a dream. Then I really woke up. I was so relieved at this point. I do sometimes get this weird feeling that it really did happen.

I've dreamed at least 3 times about nuclear war coming to the UK and seeing mushroom clouds out of the window. These things definitely come from dark times in your life for us all.

Charlotte 😻

[Stottie Girl]

Oh that's a weird one. Had it a few times. Once I'd killed someone and hid the body in a pond by a road. I thought I'd woke up then terrified as I'd done this and it wasn't a dream. Then I really woke up. I was so relieved at this point. I do sometimes get this weird feeling that it really did happen.

I've dreamed at least 3 times about nuclear war coming to the UK and seeing mushroom clouds out of the window. These things definitely come from dark times in your life for us all.

Charlotte 😻

Well if you did do something Charlotte I hope you hid the body well!

I think for those of us who grew up during the cold war we've probably all had those dreams about nuclear blasts. They really do terrify me.

However, I am darkly fascinated by the subject, I am drawn to stories involving it but then it causes nightmares. I guess I am a glutton for punishment!

I remember reading "When the wind blows" when I was a kid thinking it was just another comic book. It affected me for ages, as did watching the BBC's Threads film drama at primary school. Still can't believe they showed that to kids. Scarred for life! It's a bit daft in todays context but I quite liked reading Nevil Shute's "On the beach" too.

Also quite enjoyed the recent Katheryn Bigalow movie even though it didn't have a conclusion.

[Sephirah]

Did you get it again this morning Lauren?

I obviously tempted fate and had recurring nightmares! Serves me right ha ha!

No, it seems it was a one-off. Still extremely weird and unsettling, though.

I am so sorry to hear about your nightmares, honey. I have woken many an early morning in a cold sweat. Once even sobbing like an infant. *hugs* I hope tonight is better for you! <3

It's interesting you mention mushroom clouds and nuclear war, Charlotte. That's kind of a recurring dream of mine. That and a giant black tornado.

Hah, Sarah, you are my spirit animal! I've seen Threads a number of times (probably where the dreams come from). And am also kind of morbidly fascinated with the whole thing. Not least because I recognise a lot of the areas in that movie since it takes place in my hometown. That movie is so bleak and real that it caused the government of the time to change its advice to citizens during a nuclear threat.

I will have to try your brain re-boot, Davina. That sounds like a good idea!

[Sephirah]

I am extremely worried about someone. I don't know if I should say who it is. People who know me, probably already know.

Everyone deserves to be okay,

[Sephirah]

I don't... I don't want to post in this too often because there are people far more worthy of attention.

This week.. I have felt like the Duracell Bunny been trapped in a cage, forced to power New York. Drained is just a word.

I had some medical stuff going on. Story of my life, haha

Other than that, nothing interesting going on.

Back to your regularly scheduled programming.

[ChrissyRyan]

You are very nice Lauren.  I hope your medical situation improves.   Sounds like you need a recharge.


Chrissy

[Stottie Girl]

I don't... I don't want to post in this too often because there are people far more worthy of attention.

This week.. I have felt like the Duracell Bunny been trapped in a cage, forced to power New York. Drained is just a word.

I had some medical stuff going on. Story of my life, haha

Other than that, nothing interesting going on.

Back to your regularly scheduled programming.

You are as worthy of attention as anyone Lauren. Don't forget that.

Sarah xx

[Dawn Kellie]

I don't... I don't want to post in this too often because there are people far more worthy of attention.

This week.. I have felt like the Duracell Bunny been trapped in a cage, forced to power New York. Drained is just a word.

I had some medical stuff going on. Story of my life, haha

Other than that, nothing interesting going on.

Back to your regularly scheduled programming.

You have a kindred shirt willing to listen. I don't get the dreams, but I understand the feelings.

[Dances With Trees]

This week.. I have felt like the Duracell Bunny been trapped in a cage, forced to power New York. Drained is just a word.

Massive hugs, Sephirah!

[Lori Dee ✅]

Lotsa love and massive hugs, Lauren!

😘

[Pema]

Do your thing, Lauren. You know we're here for you.

[Sephirah]

I do not think there's a charger big enough, Chrissy, haha.

Thank you. Sincerely. A lot of the time it's... hard. I have to budget my energy, like someone trying to lose weight has to budget calories. That's largely why I am not here as much as I would like to be. Otherwise, all you would get is drool and an overwhelming desire to eat brains. As an empath, whether you believe in that or not, coming here is like trying to swim in the ocean amid a hurricane. The emotional intensity is, and always has been... off whatever scale you want to create for it. It's borderline overwhelming.

Most days the world is kind of far in the distance. I do feel like I am on a charger, so to speak. I spend a lot of time just trying to recover. Trying to get more than 1%, haha. So... I need to say sorry to anyone who hopes for more than I can give. I am deeply sorry. You deserve more. I am hoping that this will change in the future. That I can get back to being somewhat normal.

I am just dealing with some stuff is all. Feels like I have been dealing with some stuff for a long time, though. And I am, frankly, sick of it.

ANYWAY!

Enough depressing stuff.

What makes you smile? In its simplest form. What singular thing makes you feel good?

[davina61]

I hope you get better soon XX .For me its my kids and grandkids, making stuff in my workshop and seeing live music and of course just living as myself.

[Sephirah]

I hope you get better soon XX .For me its my kids and grandkids, making stuff in my workshop and seeing live music and of course just living as myself.

What kind of live music are you into, Davina? I have seen videos of Nightwish live. That kind of energy is probably something which only comes along once in a lifetime. You strike me as someone who just loves life. And you inject that here.

Thank you. <3

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Sending you my love and hugs Lauren. I wish I had some energy I could send your way too, to help you recharge. Sounds like you have a lot going on too which is taking its toll on you. I hope you are at least getting some way towards resolving it?

As you have offered to me, I too am happy to listen if you ever want DM me. I can listen even if I don't have answers.

Also please don't be sorry for not being present all the time. You owe us all nothing, and you owe your health everything. Besides the time you do spend here, your contributions have such a high value. The weight of contributions is not just the frequency, but also the content. Every word you type has meaning and value.

Love and hugs,
Charlotte 😻

[KathyLauren]

(((HUGS!)))

What singular thing makes you feel good?

My kitties.  Two of them are ex-feral and one is a former stray.  The former stray understands about houses, though we think his last home might not have been very nice for him. 

The two ex-feral boys (they are still pretty feral, actually), Clifford and Winkle, can't quite figure out why they live indoors now.  They are extremely smart, and have adapted well.  They are a tightly-bonded pair.  It makes me go all mushy inside seeing them grooming each other.  They are just so sweet together.  They don't quite trust us humans completely, but they prefer to be around us.  After six years, I can pat them exactly once per day, no more. 

The former stray, Dibley, was obviously an only cat at his previous home.  He had no idea how to behave around other cats.  The other two have gradually settled him down, and they mostly get along fine now. It was not just familiarity that settled him down: they were clearly actively teaching him.  Any time Dibley would get into a fight with Winkle, Clifford would come over, even from the next room, and get between them to break it up.

Seeing that intelligence and love among the cats definitely makes me smile.

[Dawn Kellie]

The times I get to be Kellie

[Emma1017]

Lauren, you have been such a huge support to so many of us. Please take care of yourself.  I wish I could reflect back just a portion of the positive energy you shared with me. That love and support should not come at a cost to you.  You shouldn't be like John Coffey in The Green Mile movie:

🔗

Again, please take care of yourself. You have my email address, and I would love to talk to you if you want. Whatever you need!!!❤️

Warmest hugs and love,

Emma