Thanks ladies.
I think I'm going to take the middle path. It appeals to the slight Buddhist tendencies in me

Seriously though, the only one who talked this through properly with me was the women's health specialist and she suggested Evorel 75 to start with.
My last estradiol E2 blood tests were, in the words of my clinic, 'a little on the low side' so I don't think it will do harm to up things and I sense coming from the short-fuse gels it might be better if the Evorel is slightly higher than slightly lower.
I did once spike with my estradiol level about 3 years ago for reasons which no one could quite work out. I went up to 1250 pmol/L. I had slightly tender breasts and nausea but my then brilliant GP (a different one) said it wouldn't be doing me any harm as such and we nudged down my dose.
One thing I have to report that they have all said at my surgery is not to apply it to the abdomen, but waist-down?
@Lori Dee Wow it gets confusing 🤔
Another thing which is interesting is that seemingly no one there wants to take responsibility. But if I try to do so that becomes a big no-no. Not being funny but those of you on here probably have more knowledge about these things than they do: when it comes to gender care I mean. There's a balancing act and that can add to the sense that we're flying solo. For newbies on this journey, or those with mental health issues, this can all add to the fear factor.
I'll also add that that once over a decade ago I self-prescribed and self-sourced and that was a massive no-no. I made myself very ill with the anti-androgens.
So I guess we need to go through the professionals but balance this with awareness that they may not always 'know best'?
xx