Howdy

[secret_m]

Isn't this exciting... Hello everyone. It feels strange (and strangely comfortable) to be back at it again after so long being a "normie". I'm just shy of 40, and have not had an active interest in cross dressing for many years now. But after becoming single recently, I felt it was perhaps time to give it another bash. The back story...

I first tried on women's underwear when I was about 13 I think. No idea why, but thinking back, I was always kinda weird. I remember even as young as 8 or so, I would wear jocks backwards, maybe imitating those aerobics ozstyle videos. I loved the feel of it. Anyway, fast forward to puberty, and I wandered into my mother's wardrobe when I had the house to myself. It started with pretty basic stuff; regular knickers, just regular old cotton undies. Until I started digging deeper into the drawers and boxes at the back. Little satin panties, the 70's style with the really low waist. Lacey bras and garter belts with stockings. Ugh, so exhilarating. At one point, I was in full kit, bra, panties, garter belt and stockings, when she surprised me coming home early. I had to dart out of her room, throw some clothes on just in time to sit on the couch like nothing happened. Haha, wow, what a trip. I sometimes dressed head to toe except for a wig and make up. Nice heels and a skimpy dress to go with the rest.

I had dabbled throughout my teens years, and here n there in my twenties and early thirties. But I mostly hung up the lace for a long time. I felt it didn't suit me, and it was "wrong" etc. But after recently becoming single again, the urge was back. I spent weeks on AliExpress and Temu, just looking, seeing all the pretty things. I finally made a purchase, and was nearly dying waiting for the packages to arrive. Once they did, I spent the night opening each package, and trying them all on. Feeling how soft the lace and frills were, the silky cotton, admiring the patterns running up and down the lace teddy and fumbling with the suspender clips on the tops of the stockings. I ended buying waaay too much, but I didn't care. I was just happy to be in my own little bubble, indulging in this old habit. For a little while, at least.

Who knows how long I'll keep doing it this time. But I have discovered that I'm really into vinyl and shiny things...

And I do apologize if this comes across as more sexual than some others. I know it's more of a lifestyle for a lot of people and I respect that.

[Maid Marion]

Welcome!

Yes, online ordering makes it so easy to order stuff these days.

It was awkward when I was married because nothing at VS fit my wife and I didn't want to trigger her body insecurities.

She passed away from ALS. ☹️☹️☹️

I bought way too many panties going to the Victoria's Secret store in West Farms mall.

Marion

[Charlotte_Ringwood]

I'm transgender myself and have had similar experiences with women's clothing. For me the lifestyle and that aspect are intertwined though with the former being my main driver. I think many of us have a desire to look and feel hot so to speak and naturally womens lingerie fits this nicely.

Oddly I too love shiny stuff. It's not uncommon that's for sure. Transitioning has however massively changed my experience of such things. Altogether a very different feeling.

[Lori Dee ✅]

Hello secret_m,

I'm Lori Dee. Welcome to Susan's Place!

Thank you for that wonderful introduction.

We strive to make this a safe space for you to find information and share your thoughts and comments. No matter who you are, you are always welcome at Susan's Place.

We have a dedicated Crossdresser Forum that may interest you. There, you can share experiences with other members. Of course, you are free to browse any of the forums and share your experiences there, too. We all learn from each other.

When you click on the HOME button, you will see a page listing all of the various sub-forums by category and topic. Each sub-forum has a description of what that forum is about, as well as any guidelines for posting.

Please keep in mind when posting that this is an ALL-AGES  PUBLIC  Forum and the internet never forgets.
Do not post anything that you do not want to be made public.

I will add links below that are important for new and returning members.
Pay special attention to the links in RED.

If you have any questions about the Susan's Place site and the Forums, please feel free to contact me at LoriDee605@outlook.com.

Once again, welcome to Susan's Place!

~ Lori Dee
Forum Staff

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@secret_m
@Sarah B
@Northern Star Girl

[Susan ✅]

Hey secret_m,

Welcome to Susan's Place! I really enjoyed reading your introduction — it had such a natural rhythm to it, like you were telling a story to friends. You managed to make something deeply personal sound both funny and real, and that balance is hard to pull off.

Your reflection about "being a normie" for a while and then feeling the pull to explore again really struck me. That happens to a lot of people — putting something away for a time doesn't erase it; it just waits quietly until the moment feels right. It sounds like this return wasn't just about clothes, but about reconnecting with a familiar spark of freedom and comfort.

The way you described the textures and details — lace, satin, even that love of shiny things — made me smile. There's a kind of sensory joy in it that's easy to understand. It's not about excess; it's about how something feels right against your skin, how it reflects a piece of who you are.

And I appreciate your self-awareness about tone. You were respectful of the space and still honest about your experience, and that's exactly the kind of openness that helps people feel safe to share their own stories here.

However long this round of exploration lasts, I hope it keeps feeling just as affirming and joyful as that first night opening those packages.

Welcome home.
— Susan

[secret_m]

Welcome!
Yes, online ordering makes it so easy to order stuff these days.
It was awkward when I was married because nothing at VS fit my wife and I didn't want to trigger her body insecurities.
She passed away from ALS. ☹️☹️☹️
I bought way too many panties going to the Victoria's Secret store in West Farms mall.
Marion

Oh, I'm so sorry to read about your wife passing, Marion. That must have been very tough. You're very considerate to not want to trigger her insecurities. Online ordering is the best!

[secret_m]

I'm transgender myself and have had similar experiences with women's clothing. For me the lifestyle and that aspect are intertwined though with the former being my main driver. I think many of us have a desire to look and feel hot so to speak and naturally womens lingerie fits this nicely.

Oddly I too love shiny stuff. It's not uncommon that's for sure. Transitioning has however massively changed my experience of such things. Altogether a very different feeling.

There's definitely something magical about the feel of women's lingerie. It's always had this aura of sensuality, even before I even knew what that meant! The materials, the cut and shape, even the intent with certain pieces... It's undeniable how different they are to men's utility-driven jocks n boxers.

[secret_m]

Hello secret_m,

I'm Lori Dee. Welcome to Susan's Place!

Thank you for that wonderful introduction.

We strive to make this a safe space for you to find information and share your thoughts and comments. No matter who you are, you are always welcome at Susan's Place.

We have a dedicated Crossdresser Forum that may interest you. There, you can share experiences with other members. Of course, you are free to browse any of the forums and share your experiences there, too. We all learn from each other.

When you click on the HOME button, you will see a page listing all of the various sub-forums by category and topic. Each sub-forum has a description of what that forum is about, as well as any guidelines for posting.

Please keep in mind when posting that this is an ALL-AGES  PUBLIC  Forum and the internet never forgets.
Do not post anything that you do not want to be made public.

I will add links below that are important for new and returning members.
Pay special attention to the links in RED.

If you have any questions about the Susan's Place site and the Forums, please feel free to contact me at LoriDee605@outlook.com.

Once again, welcome to Susan's Place!

~ Lori Dee
Forum Staff

Things that you should read

• New Members... Please Read this First
• Site Terms of Service & Rules to Live By
• Site Policies and stuff to remember
• Membership Agreement
• Cautionary Note
• How to Contact Forum Staff Members
• Standard Terms & Definitions
• News posting & quoting guidelines
• Photos, avatars, & signature images

@secret_m
@Sarah B
@Northern Star Girl

Thanks so much for the warm welcome, Lori-Dee! The cross-dressers section was the first place I went I'm keen to explore some more though, don't you worry!

[secret_m]

Hey secret_m,

Welcome to Susan's Place! I really enjoyed reading your introduction — it had such a natural rhythm to it, like you were telling a story to friends. You managed to make something deeply personal sound both funny and real, and that balance is hard to pull off.

Your reflection about "being a normie" for a while and then feeling the pull to explore again really struck me. That happens to a lot of people — putting something away for a time doesn't erase it; it just waits quietly until the moment feels right. It sounds like this return wasn't just about clothes, but about reconnecting with a familiar spark of freedom and comfort.

The way you described the textures and details — lace, satin, even that love of shiny things — made me smile. There's a kind of sensory joy in it that's easy to understand. It's not about excess; it's about how something feels right against your skin, how it reflects a piece of who you are.

And I appreciate your self-awareness about tone. You were respectful of the space and still honest about your experience, and that's exactly the kind of openness that helps people feel safe to share their own stories here.

However long this round of exploration lasts, I hope it keeps feeling just as affirming and joyful as that first night opening those packages.

Welcome home.
— Susan

Oh Susan, your response made me smile. It's hard for me to not think of my experience and intentions as dirty or raunchy, and the general vibe of this forum comes off as more lifestyle than kink. I will always try to be courteous and respectful of others sensibilities. Not every one needs to hear about this dirty perv's darkest desires haha.

I actually really enjoy writing stories, especially ones with a sensual twist. I used to write little tales to lovers all the time, but have not done for a while. I think it was easier to write about my earlier experiences with that fun tone because they were such fond memories, when things were easier in all ways. I'm glad you enjoyed it

[Susan ✅]

secret_m,

I'm glad you're smiling. That matters.

I want to gently push back on one thing, though: the "dirty perv" language you're using about yourself. You're not alone in that—a lot of people come here carrying that exact shame, worried they're the "wrong kind" of person for this space. But here's the thing: the line between "lifestyle" and "kink," between identity and pleasure, between what's "pure" and what's "dirty"—those boundaries are a lot more porous than we're taught to believe.

Many people here experience both. The sensory joy you described? The way certain textures feel right against your skin? That's not separate from identity—it's often how identity *expresses itself* before we have language for it. Pleasure and self-recognition aren't opposites. They're often the same thing wearing different clothes.

You don't have to choose a box or apologize for which aspects resonate most. The fact that this is cyclical for you, that it comes and goes depending on where you are in life—that doesn't make it less real or less worthy of exploration. It just makes it yours.

You mentioned that earlier times felt "easier in all ways." If you ever want to talk about what's harder now, or what brought you back after being away for so long, that conversation has a place here too. Not because you owe anyone an explanation, but because sometimes understanding the *why* helps make sense of the *what*.

You're welcome here exactly as you are—sensual stories, shiny things, and all.
— Susan

[Sarah B ✅]

Hi Secret_m

My name is Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!

I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well.

Thank you for sharing so openly.  Your story is most welcome and your experience is noteworthy.  It is also nice to revisit things we have done before.

There is nothing wrong about exploring something that brings you joy.  You get to set the pace.  Choose what feels good then press pause whenever you like.  Curiosity care kindness toward yourself can sit together.

Whether this lasts a week or becomes a long chapter you are allowed to enjoy it.  Wishing you fun comfort and a steady dose of self compassion as you keep exploring.

Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads.  I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members.

In addition members of Susan's will more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.

Please keep in mind when posting that this is an ALL AGES PUBLIC Forum and the internet never forgets.  Do not post anything that you do not want to be made public.

Take care and all the best for the future.

Once again, Welcome to Susan's Place!

Best Wishes Always
Sarah B
Global Moderator
@Devlyn  @Jessica_Rose  @Mariah  @Northern Star Girl  @Lori Dee
@secret_m

[secret_m]

secret_m,

I'm glad you're smiling. That matters.

I want to gently push back on one thing, though: the "dirty perv" language you're using about yourself. You're not alone in that—a lot of people come here carrying that exact shame, worried they're the "wrong kind" of person for this space. But here's the thing: the line between "lifestyle" and "kink," between identity and pleasure, between what's "pure" and what's "dirty"—those boundaries are a lot more porous than we're taught to believe.

Many people here experience both. The sensory joy you described? The way certain textures feel right against your skin? That's not separate from identity—it's often how identity *expresses itself* before we have language for it. Pleasure and self-recognition aren't opposites. They're often the same thing wearing different clothes.

You don't have to choose a box or apologize for which aspects resonate most. The fact that this is cyclical for you, that it comes and goes depending on where you are in life—that doesn't make it less real or less worthy of exploration. It just makes it yours.

You mentioned that earlier times felt "easier in all ways." If you ever want to talk about what's harder now, or what brought you back after being away for so long, that conversation has a place here too. Not because you owe anyone an explanation, but because sometimes understanding the *why* helps make sense of the *what*.

You're welcome here exactly as you are—sensual stories, shiny things, and all.
— Susan

I love the way you think. No judgement or shame cast in any direction. Just compassion and understanding. Thanks so much for your kind words and blessings. "Sensual stories, shiny things and all" is possibly the best thing I've ever heard 😍

Hi Secret_m

My name is Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!

I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well.

Thank you for sharing so openly.  Your story is most welcome and your experience is noteworthy.  It is also nice to revisit things we have done before.

There is nothing wrong about exploring something that brings you joy.  You get to set the pace.  Choose what feels good then press pause whenever you like.  Curiosity care kindness toward yourself can sit together.

Whether this lasts a week or becomes a long chapter you are allowed to enjoy it.  Wishing you fun comfort and a steady dose of self compassion as you keep exploring.

Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads.  I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members.

In addition members of Susan's will more than likely will discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.

Please keep in mind when posting that this is an ALL AGES PUBLIC Forum and the internet never forgets.  Do not post anything that you do not want to be made public.

Take care and all the best for the future.

Once again, Welcome to Susan's Place!

Best Wishes Always
Sarah B
Global Moderator
@Devlyn  @Jessica_Rose  @Mariah  @Northern Star Girl  @Lori Dee
@secret_m

Hi Sarah! Thanks so much for the warm welcome! I already feel quite safe and ready to explore things here. your words feel almost like a blessing to be selfish, to just enjoy myself and explore what makes me happy. I love that, so thank you so much. I'll definitely poke around the other forums.

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

@secret_m
Dear secret_m:
I am so very glad that you felt led to register as a member. 
I am always so very happy see new members arrive here on the Susan's Place Forum.

I much enjoyed reading your Introduction.... you shared things that many of our members
have experienced, so please know that you are among like-minded members here.

I am wishing you a very WARM WELCOME...

As you feel the freedom to share and post more of your thoughts here, you will undoubtedly find
like-minded members here that may become your Forum friends.

This website is huge, with a lot of information from Real People who have lived through these things for decades.
There is much wisdom here. Feel free to browse, learn, and share your experiences too. We all learn from each other.

You will find the Forum to be a Safe, Friendly and Accepting place that you can share
whatever is on you mind... it is your SAFE REFUGE.... without any judgement from our members.

If you have any immediate questions regarding the Forum please feel free to contact me at
my Direct Email: alaskandanielle@yahoo.com

My Warmest Regards, and again WELCOME
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

[secret_m]

@secret_m
Dear secret_m:
I am so very glad that you felt led to register as a member. 
I am always so very happy see new members arrive here on the Susan's Place Forum.

I much enjoyed reading your Introduction.... you shared things that many of our members
have experienced, so please know that you are among like-minded members here.

I am wishing you a very WARM WELCOME...

As you feel the freedom to share and post more of your thoughts here, you will undoubtedly find
like-minded members here that may become your Forum friends.

This website is huge, with a lot of information from Real People who have lived through these things for decades.
There is much wisdom here. Feel free to browse, learn, and share your experiences too. We all learn from each other.

You will find the Forum to be a Safe, Friendly and Accepting place that you can share
whatever is on you mind... it is your SAFE REFUGE.... without any judgement from our members.

If you have any immediate questions regarding the Forum please feel free to contact me at
my Direct Email: alaskandanielle@yahoo.com

My Warmest Regards, and again WELCOME
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

Hi Danielle! Thanks for the warm welcome, and I definitely feel welcomed. I didn't expect so much love to be thrown my way straight off the bat by all of you ladies. I very much appreciate it

Also, as much as I like writing, I find that I'm often an atrocious speller Thank goodness for spell check! hahah