I still think at times all those times girls have being girls from birth through college.
We are just different from guys. Not that guy things or experiences are necessarily bad, it is just that I missed out on all the female growing up experiences while growing up.
I have been catching up with some the learning but it is not the same as doing all this while you were being raised. I wish I could have been mom and dad's girl. I am living my female life now, and that is good for sure.
That desired past will never be, there is nothing that can be done to have those formative times now. I do enjoy what I have now for sure. I probably will always daydream of that desired past but the time to live my life is now and the future.
So I am ready for work, leaving soon, having nice clothes on, and I will walk from my car with my purse and papers and will run a meeting in less than a hour. Some men and women will be there and they all treat me as a professional and as a woman. I feel safe and comfortable there, as it should be.
Yes, they will pay attention to what we discuss. They will also pay attention to what I wear and how I handle myself, but all women are subject to that scrutiny. Some of them will focus occasionally below my face and linger but that too is part of being a woman. Could I ever go back to living as a male? Yes, if deemed wise, but it would not be as pleasant and natural, and I sure do not want to. For one thing, it has taken so much to come this far and I so much enjoy being me, Christine, not Chris.
I think it will be a good, productive day. I hope yours is a wonderful day today. Make it so.
Chrissy