Charlotte's scratch post

[Lori Dee ✅]

Hmm as with a lot of these things there are things i agree with and things i totally don't but on the whole that is actually pretty acurate.

What about the dragon thing though? Does that mean I can learn to breath fire? lol! Could be handy at a BBQ!

Dragon: Confident, ambitious, and charismatic.

[Stottie Girl]

Dragon: Confident, ambitious, and charismatic.

Thank you Lori, Not sure that's me mind! Maybe you have to be chinese!

[Lori Dee ✅]

Thank you Lori, Not sure that's me mind! Maybe you have to be chinese!

Charismatic? Definitely.
Confident, Ambitious? You are rebuilding a house! Of course they fit.

[Stottie Girl]

Charismatic? Definitely.
Confident, Ambitious? You are rebuilding a house! Of course they fit.

Aw you say the sweetest things Lori lol! Thank you!

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Well, I can say sublingually taking too many estradiol pills at once is a strange experience. My whole mouth tingled, then filled with liquid that turned milky with the pills. Tasted awful. Started feeling a slight high after about an hour, and my heart rate went up. Now just feel really wiped out.

BTW I DON'T RECOMMEND TRYING IF YOU VALUE YOUR HEALTH!

[Stottie Girl]

Well, I can say sublingually taking too many estradiol pills at once is a strange experience. My whole mouth tingled, then filled with liquid that turned milky with the pills. Tasted awful. Started feeling a slight high after about an hour, and my heart rate went up. Now just feel really wiped out.

BTW I DON'T RECOMMEND TRYING IF YOU VALUE YOUR HEALTH!

Charlotte, What the hell are you doing Girl? HRT is not something you play around with, it can have VERY serious side effects, like clots, cardiac problems, hell it can kill you. They aren't smarties, taking that much won't make you feel the effects any faster, your body can't process that much in one sitting anyway, you're just wasting meds. Don't be silly about this sweetie.

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

@Charlotte Kitty  cc: @Stottie Girl

Dear Charlotte:
   
                  Sarah is very correct.

My reply to you is one word.
    DANGEROUS

PLEASE be careful and ASAP go to a
CLINIC and get your blood tests.
You are flying blind without blood testing.

Also, taking too many estradiol pills is awfully dangerous
by a very large factor and I'll say it again DANGEROUS.  VERY DANGEROUS.

DID A DOCTOR TELL YOU TO TAKE THAT BIG DOSE?

                I am very concerned for your ongoing health.
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
The Forum Administrator

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Thanks @Stottie Girl and @Northern Star Girl

I'm sure I'll be ok. I just do reckless stuff and experiment when I'm feeling that kind of way. I'm not really too bothered about my health or being around for much longer, so to me this is just fun and excitement to see what happens!

Charlotte ❤️

[Petunia]

Charlotte, do you know how alarmed all your friends here are?

We all care about you.

I know you are a smart girl. Please don't do this.

The one thing in your life that you will miss if you don't have it is your health.

Why do you go running?
One of the reasons is your health.

Have you considered that something like this might mean you can't take your hrt ever again?

I know you would hate that.

I know I would hate that for you.
I know a lot of other people here that would hate that for you.

Your boyfriend would hate that for you.

Can you contact that friend you recently made and tell her how you are feeling and what you did?

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Charlotte, do you know how alarmed all your friends here are?

We all care about you.

I know you are a smart girl. Please don't do this.

The one thing in your life that you will miss if you don't have it is your health.

Why do you go running?
One of the reasons is your health.

Have you considered that something like this might mean you can't take your hrt ever again?

I know you would hate that.

I know I would hate that for you.
I know a lot of other people here that would hate that for you.

Your boyfriend would hate that for you.

Can you contact that friend you recently made and tell her how you are feeling and what you did?

Thanks for the love Petunia. You're a kind and beautiful person.

I did message them and chatted a bit. Didn't really help much.

The reality is I would not stop HRT if if told I needed to do so. If that hastened my end, so beit. I'm completely comfortable with that.

My bf will be fine as I'm making sure all my pensions go to him and checking my work life insurance will cover everything.

So I think everything is in order so i don't need to worry if I go to far one day.

Charlotte ❤️

[tammy753]

I messed up my HRT Saturday and took the wrong pill at the wrong time and I was messed up for 3 days. My emotions were all over the place. Please don't do things like this you are incredible and we need people like you in this world.

[Gina P]

Be careful girl. You are loved and we want to see you around a bit longer.
Hugs Gina

[Devlyn ✅]

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[Devlyn ✅]

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[Northern Star Girl ✅]

@Charlotte Kitty
Dear Charlotte:
I am eagerly looking forward to reading about your future adventures and seeing you in
your colorful and beautiful clothing choices.

HUGS, and more HUGS,
Danielle

[ChrissyRyan]

Charlotte,


I hope you are doing well. 

May your weekend be fun and rewarding, wonderful for you.


Hugs,


Chrissy

[Stottie Girl]

Morning Charlotte. I hope you understand why I was so sharply critical about your HRT doseage before. I Hope you realise it came from a place of concern and kindness. You scare me sometimes the way you are so casual with your health. You aren't the first person to feel the way you did there though. I only want the best for you and hope that you can get what you so desperately need from your transition.

Let's put all that behind us now anyway. It's a brand new weekend, I always look forward to hearing what you've been up too and tales from the land of the furries!

Sarah xx

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Thanks all for the love yesterday and sorry for losing it. On Thursday night i broke quite badly, i couldn't barely even say a word to my boyfriend and sat in silence. Friday was much the same, just felt vacant all day.

Today a little better thank you although I still feel very emotionally drained.

I'm struggling massively with self image right now. Even around 20 cis women telling me they thought I was cis is not even cutting through the feeling. I think this is totally about what I see and feel and probably because I've got BPD which would explain everything. 

Thursday is the big day because i see a psychiatrist. I'm terrified.  What if they don't find I have BPD and I'm on my own again? What if the treatment is ages away or no good? What if they fob me off? I'm just scared as if i can't sort this, honestly I have no life.  I can't go on with this level of emotional volatility and the overall feeling I dont want to exist. Thats been my default position for 30+ years now.

Anyways enough of that. I just want you to know i dont want or like  any of these feelings and behaviours. But right now they totally own me.

@ChrissyRyan Thank you. I have electrolysis for GRS this afternoon. Tomorrow morning I have s charity 5k run. I do need to rest too as exhausted.  I hope you have a lovely weekend too.

Love Charlotte ❤️ 😍

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Morning Charlotte. I hope you understand why I was so sharply critical about your HRT doseage before. I Hope you realise it came from a place of concern and kindness. You scare me sometimes the way you are so casual with your health. You aren't the first person to feel the way you did there though. I only want the best for you and hope that you can get what you so desperately need from your transition.

Let's put all that behind us now anyway. It's a brand new weekend, I always look forward to hearing what you've been up too and tales from the land of the furries!

Sarah xx

Sarah, sweetie. I didn't find you critical or anything wrong with your message at all.  Just love and concern from a friend. I always really appreciate your messages. Above you'll read where my head was at!

Have a lovely weekend too and hope you're well?

Charlotte ❤️

[Stottie Girl]

Thanks Charlotte, I worry if I overstep the mark sometimes.

I'm OK I suppose, another day in male prison. It's hard to get motivated to be honest. It's grey and miserable and wet outside. A lovely change to be fair ha ha! I should probably make a move to go to my house soon and have a go at removing some more wallpaper.