Quote from: Charlotte Kitty on April 21, 2026, 04:12:56 PMI'm basically invisible to most people and often ignored!
From what I've learned about you, Charlotte, what you've spoken about... sweetie... I think, maybe subconsciously that's how you want to be to people. And... maybe outside of your control you make it happen. If I can be blunt, Charlotte, it feels to me like a lot of the time you want to be invisible and ignored to yourself. For entirely understandable reasons and please don't take this in any other way than... girl... you give yourself such a hard time. You punish yourself far more than anyone else punishes you.
The way we are within ourselves influences heavily the way the world sees us. If you are someone who feels they're not worth anything, and is not worth noticing, then subconsciously the mind makes the body give off those signals to the world around us. We shrink away from it all. Hide who we are. And then when we don't get noticed, it reinforces how we felt in the beginning. It's a vicious cycle.
I can only go on how you are here, Charlotte, but I don't see that at all. I don't see you being ignored, or invisible, or anything like that. Maybe because here you feel you can let your walls down and feel free to express yourself... as scary and dangerous and wonderful as that is. And... people respond. You let people see you here, and people respond to that. In a way you maybe don't do outside of here. What is different between the two?
If you want to hide, then we are extremely adept at making sure no one sees us.
QuoteI wish it was different but I just dont have that confidence. I dont think I could get anyone to show up!
I absolutely get that, sweetie. Think of it like this. What would make
you want to show up? What have you enjoyed at the meets you've been to? Think about that then work towards replicating it. You know what makes something fun for you. And obviously fun for other people since you all have a great time. So just... do that!
QuoteI really need to sort myself out first in the coming months before attempting anything that pushes me. If I told you that just being active on here is causing me to flip between totally overwhelmed, broken and elated emotions, you might get an idea of how disregulated I am. I've nearly stepped away a few times now to limit emotional damage!
Charlotte, I get that more than you probably realise. I would venture it's a result of being in a place where you're actually listened to. And not knowing how to deal with that.
QuoteIve been accepted for psychiatric referral so that's a start. I can't convey how broken my mind is right now. I desperately need to focus on resolving this before I breakdown.
You will get there. I have every confidence in you, honey. Seriously. I think you're quite awesome. <3
QuoteI hope that you're doing ok at the moment? I know you suffer many demons too, so sending you my love and care xxx
Charlotte 😻
Thank you, Charlotte. I'm hanging in there same as you and everyone. <3 As the great sage Rocky Balboa said: "Life isn't about how hard you hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward."
Hang in there, girl. One day, the Furrytopia shall inherit the Earth. <3
