Hi Lori,
I tried Samaritans last time you mentioned and I'm on a 6 month wait list for councelling via birmingham lgbt. My hope is that they don't reject me for the same reasons! I've been refused councelling from my work medical insurance too because they said my case was too specialist and they discharged me!
They mostly don't like to deal with the self harm risk, preferring to send me back to the NHS and square one.
I might just have to lie to them yet try and steer the therapy in a direction that may work. However if I do have BPD this needs very specific work.
Just for reference this is pretty much the definition of BPD and what I experience constantly. Does make understanding my real feeling very hard!:-
Emotional Instability: Rapid, intense mood swings (happy to hopeless) that can last hours or days, strong feelings of emptiness, shame, or worthlessness, and difficulty controlling anger.
Identity Issues: A confused or unstable self-image and a feeling of having no purpose.
Impulsive Behaviors: Acting without thinking, potentially leading to reckless driving, binge eating, risky sexual behavior, or substance misuse.
Self-Harm & Suicidality: Recurrent self-harm or suicidal threats, gestures, or behaviors are common.
BPD results from a mix of genetic and environmental factors, with childhood trauma, abuse, or neglect being common experiences, though causes aren't fully understood.
