Charlotte's scratch post

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Wondered if you were OK Charlotte, nice to see you back.

I will confess I've never heard of BDO but a quick google search does seem like you could be onto something based on what you've been sharing. Is this instead of the other NHS referral?

Thanks Sarah and nice to be back. I'm still pursuing the NHS route to get diagnosed and long-term care. This is just to fill the gap so probably 6 months or until I get support from NHS. BPD really does need long term therapy to be effective.

Charlotte 😻

[Stottie Girl]

6 MONTHS FOR THE NHS REFERRAL???!!!!!

That is scandalous! An outright disgrace! That really has made me angry that has!

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Off to Worcester for more pre GRS electrolysis. Oddly now I'm totally used to just getting my bits worked on by someone else lol.

Nothing else exciting in my life really 😿

[Emma1017]

Charlotte, it's great to have professionals who know who you are in your life. They are great sanity anchors. 

Who would have thought that I would love my electrolysis, Regi, as she zaps the 20,000+ hair follicles on my face, but she is a buddy now.  She has talked me through some tough times.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Charlotte, it's great to have professionals who know who you are in your life. They are great sanity anchors. 

Who would have thought that I would love my electrolysis, Regi, as she zaps the 20,000+ hair follicles on my face, but she is a buddy now.  She has talked me through some tough times.

I do enjoy sessions like these as gives me a chance to chat abd socialize. Having zero friends it's kinda the only opportunity outside of work.

Charlotte 😻

[Dawn Kellie]

I do enjoy sessions like these as gives me a chance to chat abd socialize. Having zero friends it's kinda the only opportunity outside of work.

Charlotte 😻

I understand. I have my wife and kids, no other folks outside of work. My associates at work aren't ready for Kellie 🤭

[Courtney G]

I've bonded with my electrologist. I know all about her failed marriage, her new beau and the fact that she's taking it super slow, even her body - what she likes and doesn't like about it. She pretty much knows the same about me. Feeling like there's no gender barrier with her has helped ease some of my dysphoria.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Well tomorrow I've got a furry meet in Stafford. Honestly though I can't say I'm that excited about it anymore. Guess I'm really just going because my partner enjoys it and want to keep him happy. I'd sooner just spend my life at home hidden away from view, but he would hate that.

Can't say i feel very comfortable being out and about, feel like everyone is looking at the sorry state of me. Just feel my eyes squinting and want to look at the ground. Almost feel like my eyes are watering.

I looked at my pictures from the last 12 months and there has been only two bits of progress. A slight improvement about 4 months ago and after my FFS. I'm not sure what the next stage is though. I'm still not fully happy with myself to be honest. Maybe HRT will actually do something to my face in the next year or so. If it doesn't I will probably see if I can get more surgery in 2028, but would have to ask what else can actually be done, if anything.

I definitely want a hair transplant as the front  is too thin to work with now. I could do with filling the gaps to have a fringe. That would help immensely to frame my face better.

Honestly I'm doing stuff quickly as the state of business in my employment, I'm not sure I'll still have a job in a couple of years time. I'm already paid way more than all the similar jobs out there, so would land a £20k pay cut if I had to find a new job.

Charlotte 😻

[Stottie Girl]

Well tomorrow I've got a furry meet in Stafford. Honestly though I can't say I'm that excited about it anymore. Guess I'm really just going because my partner enjoys it and want to keep him happy. I'd sooner just spend my life at home hidden away from view, but he would hate that.

Can't say i feel very comfortable being out and about, feel like everyone is looking at the sorry state of me. Just feel my eyes squinting and want to look at the ground. Almost feel like my eyes are watering.

I looked at my pictures from the last 12 months and there has been only two bits of progress. A slight improvement about 4 months ago and after my FFS. I'm not sure what the next stage is though. I'm still not fully happy with myself to be honest. Maybe HRT will actually do something to my face in the next year or so. If it doesn't I will probably see if I can get more surgery in 2028, but would have to ask what else can actually be done, if anything.

I definitely want a hair transplant as the front  is too thin to work with now. I could do with filling the gaps to have a fringe. That would help immensely to frame my face better.

Honestly I'm doing stuff quickly as the state of business in my employment, I'm not sure I'll still have a job in a couple of years time. I'm already paid way more than all the similar jobs out there, so would land a £20k pay cut if I had to find a new job.

Charlotte 😻

Don't fret petal. You'll enjoy it when you get there I'm sure.

I realise you will think I'm just saying it but I really do think there has been more than just a slight improvement. Compare your avatar pic with one of your old ones like from February and I think you will barely recognise yourself.

I understand what you are saying about the money side but you have to be sure what you are doing before embarking on this stuff. Rushing for financial reasons might end up making things worse.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I can definitely see the difference the forehead reduction has made. That's definitely an improvement. I just really hate my eyes and hair line. Eyes just look really narrow and shut all the time. And the wrinkles under them are just bad. Eyeshadow makes them worse. They are my absolute worst feature!

I can get my hairline fixed that's for sure so at least one day I can grow a nice head of hair hopefully.

Honestly I'm not worried about regretting any surgery. It's not like I can make it worse. I'm 100% certain don't want to exist anymore years with male features! In reality I've not regretted any decision I've ever made. My problems are always with the present or future. I don't really think about the past and through what ifs. The past forms my personality, but i don't long to change it. I guess if there is any regret it's only one thing...that I was born. I truely and sincerely wish i never was. I don't belong here, I don't fit in here and don't really like being here. But I didn't choose that!

Charlotte 😻

[Stottie Girl]

I can definitely see the difference the forehead reduction has made. That's definitely an improvement. I just really hate my eyes and hair line. Eyes just look really narrow and shut all the time. And the wrinkles under them are just bad. Eyeshadow makes them worse. They are my absolute worst feature!

I can get my hairline fixed that's for sure so at least one day I can grow a nice head of hair hopefully.

Honestly I'm not worried about regretting any surgery. It's not like I can make it worse. I'm 100% certain don't want to exist anymore years with male features! In reality I've not regretted any decision I've ever made. My problems are always with the present or future. I don't really think about the past and through what ifs. The past forms my personality, but i don't long to change it. I guess if there is any regret it's only one thing...that I was born. I truely and sincerely wish i never was. I don't belong here, I don't fit in here and don't really like being here. But I didn't choose that!

Charlotte 😻

Stay with us Charlotte. You're sounding like you're on the brink of another wobbly moment. You've got the rest of your life to enact change, who know's where you'll end up. The best is probably yet to come.

I have hooded eyes too you know. A lot of women do, it's not the end of the world. And wrinkles, well that's the crappy part of getting older I'm afraid. We'll all have that.

Hairline is a good idea if it's making you self concious, relatively inexpensive and less invasive.

[Sephirah]

Charlotte, could you explain the whole furry thing to me? I mean if that's okay? I admit I don't know a whole lot about it and would like a little firsthand clarification.

Also *big hugs*

[Stottie Girl]

Charlotte, could you explain the whole furry thing to me? I mean if that's okay? I admit I don't know a whole lot about it and would like a little firsthand clarification.

Also *big hugs*

Thank god you asked! I thought I was the only one who wasn't down with the kids!

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

@Sephirah @Stottie Girl
Probably easier I refer you to my earlier post on my furry stuff as my heads kinda not in that space at the moment! Feeling a bit vacant.

https://www.susans.org/index.php?topic=252951.0

[Stottie Girl]

I'll take a look, thanks.

When is your first appointment with the new therapist?

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

This is me as Raveronomy with my partner Blueberry

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I'll take a look, thanks.

When is your first appointment with the new therapist?

First appointment is next Wednesday evening.

[Stottie Girl]

First appointment is next Wednesday evening.

Not long then charlotte. Let's see what they can offer for you.

[Stottie Girl]

This is me as Raveronomy with my partner Blueberry

Now that's something you don't see everyday lol! Looks like you're having fun. Are you going to share your outfits for tomorrows event?

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Now that's something you don't see everyday lol! Looks like you're having fun. Are you going to share your outfits for tomorrows event?

I will do. I'll be as Serana. Her head is lighter so won't hurt my nose so soon after surhery!