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Quote from: Stottie Girl on May 11, 2026, 10:44:18 AMOooooh, you're a dark horse, I didn't have a clue! He knows you well judging by the amount of colour on that ring!

Floral dress as in not white?

Thinking mostly white with flowers. But maybe completely white with floral lace. It'll be the most exciting ever.
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Stottie Girl

You could wear an all white traditional dress with embroided white floral lace (who wouldn't want to get married in white!) but with a colourful fresh flower crown (I think that's what they're called). That would look pretty cool and would be a nod to tradition but with your own flair for colour.

Or you could get married in your furry gear ha ha!
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Charlotte Kitty

Oh nooo..of course in the US there has been a furry wedding all in suits.

I really want to be a bride....like badly. That'll make me feel soooo good and sooo feminine. And for one day can look perfect with my hair and makeup done for me.

They pushed me hard in running club tonight. Moved up to the next group and managed to keep up. Had to go to the shop after with my man to get some milk. I walked down in my tight running shorts and top that shows my boobs shape. Feels sooo good out as a woman in my tight sporty gear hehe.

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Quote from: Charlotte Kitty on May 11, 2026, 04:54:08 PMOh nooo..of course in the US there has been a furry wedding all in suits.

I really want to be a bride....like badly. That'll make me feel soooo good and sooo feminine. And for one day can look perfect with my hair and makeup done for me.

They pushed me hard in running club tonight. Moved up to the next group and managed to keep up. Had to go to the shop after with my man to get some milk. I walked down in my tight running shorts and top that shows my boobs shape. Feels sooo good out as a woman in my tight sporty gear hehe.

Charlotte 😻

I hope to have a womanly figure some time
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Quote from: Dawn Kellie on May 11, 2026, 05:00:43 PMI hope to have a womanly figure some time

I really hope so too and all being well that process will start soon 🙂
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Congratulations. Beautiful ring. Hugs
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Charlotte Kitty

Not been feeling so good the last couple of days. My face is coming up in acne and also my butt / upper legs are covered. Don't know what's going on, but this does come in waves for me sometimes.

Feeling dysphoric too about my progress. This feels a tough time as in part I feel like I'm crossing a threshold into womanhood but still so far from how I see myself. I guess its like limbo as living as a woman with that self expression yet only just. I sat in the sun on the floor just now  and felt sorry for myself thinking about stuff and just looking at my arms, legs and hands. But the weird thing is that I saw a woman's arms, women's legs and woman's hands. I even felt the pain as a woman, feeling a deep sense of delicacy about my being. A women in distress and felt deep care for her. I'm limboing between me and my womanhood as a 3rd person but still feeling a woman in the deepest sense. Maybe I'm struggling now to match my external to a very deep inner feminine sensitivity.

To date this is one of the deepest feelings of being a woman I've felt whilst at the same time not feeling enough of a woman. This is really hard right now!

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Dawn Kellie

Im so sorry you are feeling down. I'm excited you feel them as a woman.
 
I'm sending you a big hug and a virtual shoulder to lean on
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Stottie Girl

Hey you! I've been wonderering where you've been these last few days. You were on cloud 9 about the wedding plans then you disapeared. Hope you are ok?

Transition is an awkward thing, I suppose it's like the gawky adolescent years where your body was changing from child to adult. It's just a stage you have to push through to emerge on the other side. I guess that is why I'm trying to do as much as I can while closeted to try to minimise that difficult period as much as possible. Take heart in the knowledge that all of us are going through or have gone through the same thing. The end result is worth it.

I am mostly at the stage where when I look in the mirror or look down at myself, all I see is a woman, even  my thoughts processes have changed. My senses have changed too, the sense of touch as my skin has changed, my sense of smell has changed, My personal smell has changed! It is a wonderful voyage of discovery really. I think you just need to keep your eyes on the prize and enjoy the moments like today when you feel 100% like the woman you are. The feeling awkward phase will pass soon enough and it will become 100% every day soon enough.
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Charlotte Kitty

I really didn't have much good to say and didn't feel like engaging, so just didn't post anything much. Still not great today but better than yesterday at least. I'm probably feeling more body dysmorphia now over my physical self like body shape, breasts and even my hair. Really in the same way a cis woman might. That's kind of proven as I tried to see myself as male because I thought that was my problem and I couldn't. As much as one knows that things take time its still tough being in limbo. In a way worse than being in boy mode. There were no expectations then but there are now. I hope the other side is better and sure it probably will be. But right now its a headf*** - I cant describe any better way.

On an interesting note my cis colleagues were talking about swimsuits so I chipped in saying that I'll be wearing mine out the first time at the furry con pool. I mentioned that I'm nervous and self conscious. They both almost at the same time said yep...we feel exactly the same each time we wear swimsuits out.

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Dawn Kellie

I'm looking at womans long line swim bottoms with a swim shirt. I like the look and it covers
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Quote from: Charlotte Kitty on Yesterday at 08:51:18 AMI really didn't have much good to say and didn't feel like engaging, so just didn't post anything much. Still not great today but better than yesterday at least. I'm probably feeling more body dysmorphia now over my physical self like body shape, breasts and even my hair. Really in the same way a cis woman might. That's kind of proven as I tried to see myself as male because I thought that was my problem and I couldn't. As much as one knows that things take time its still tough being in limbo. In a way worse than being in boy mode. There were no expectations then but there are now. I hope the other side is better and sure it probably will be. But right now its a headf*** - I cant describe any better way.

On an interesting note my cis colleagues were talking about swimsuits so I chipped in saying that I'll be wearing mine out the first time at the furry con pool. I mentioned that I'm nervous and self conscious. They both almost at the same time said yep...we feel exactly the same each time we wear swimsuits out.

Charlotte x
I'm sorry your feeling that way Charlotte. But I'm sorry to say if you think as a woman you won't be worrying about body shape, hair and boobs you're probably out of luck! Most CIS gender women as far as I can see are obsessed about their body shape in particular and it isn't fair that everywhere they look there are perfect examples what they are "supposed" to look like everywhere, on bill boards, on tv, in magazines. Women are naturally much more analytical about their appearance and it's not always healthy. You will have to try to learn how to avoid camparing your self to these impossible women.

When I went on my last walk to Dunstanburgh castle I was looking at the other women on the walk and I have to say, I think when I'm in girl mode, even casually, I was better looking and more feminine that a lot of those out walking. That's not me being big headed it's just comparing myself against real women in real life. I think you should do a bit more of that because in my eyes you will not be out of place among them.

Wearing a swimsuit pre-op is a bold step Charlotte. I don't want to put you off particularly but are you sure you have a good tucking regime that would survive being in the baths? I would hate you to have an embarrassing moment getting in or out the pool. Plus changing rooms? how are you going to deal with that? I have pretty much written off swimming as an activity until I can get GRS.
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Charlotte Kitty

Quote from: Stottie Girl on Yesterday at 09:23:28 AMI'm sorry your feeling that way Charlotte. But I'm sorry to say if you think as a woman you won't be worrying about body shape, hair and boobs you're probably out of luck! Most CIS gender women as far as I can see are obsessed about their body shape in particular and it isn't fair that everywhere they look there are perfect examples what they are "supposed" to look like everywhere, on bill boards, on tv, in magazines. Women are naturally much more analytical about their appearance and it's not always healthy. You will have to try to learn how to avoid camparing your self to these impossible women.

When I went on my last walk to Dunstanburgh castle I was looking at the other women on the walk and I have to say, I think when I'm in girl mode, even casually, I was better looking and more feminine that a lot of those out walking. That's not me being big headed it's just comparing myself against real women in real life. I think you should do a bit more of that because in my eyes you will not be out of place among them.

Wearing a swimsuit pre-op is a bold step Charlotte. I don't want to put you off particularly but are you sure you have a good tucking regime that would survive being in the baths? I would hate you to have an embarrassing moment getting in or out the pool. Plus changing rooms? how are you going to deal with that? I have pretty much written off swimming as an activity until I can get GRS.

The odd thing with me is that one of these so called perfect bodied women is the last thing I want to be. My body is actually closer to that than where I want to be. I'd love to be curvy but don't think my body will go that way easily. Things like swim suits just hang on me as I've got no shape - the only shape I have is my tummy out a tiny bit and too big arms muscles that I can't stand to see, then its all shapeless.

Not really worried if there is a bulge in my swimsuit - I'd rather minimal but its not a deal breaker. If others don't like it that's their problem. I'll put a very tight spandex thong I have under to control that to some degree. More nervy about my lack of shape really. I'll prob wear my swimsuit under my clothes to at least avoid changing into it. I'll change back hiding under my towel! I'll make sure my boobs are out ASAP so that bit at least lends me some womanhood to anyone if they look! Also will wear an ultra femme outfit going in and out. Hopefully it'll mostly be furries in there rather than normies!

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Quote from: Charlotte Kitty on Yesterday at 09:35:38 AMThe odd thing with me is that one of these so called perfect bodied women is the last thing I want to be. My body is actually closer to that than where I want to be. I'd love to be curvy but don't think my body will go that way easily. Things like swim suits just hang on me as I've got no shape - the only shape I have is my tummy out a tiny bit and too big arms muscles that I can't stand to see, then its all shapeless.

Not really worried if there is a bulge in my swimsuit - I'd rather minimal but its not a deal breaker. If others don't like it that's their problem. I'll put a very tight spandex thong I have under to control that to some degree. More nervy about my lack of shape really. I'll prob wear my swimsuit under my clothes to at least avoid changing into it. I'll change back hiding under my towel! I'll make sure my boobs are out ASAP so that bit at least lends me some womanhood to anyone if they look! Also will wear an ultra femme outfit going in and out. Hopefully it'll mostly be furries in there rather than normies!

Charlotte X

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Oh I forgot you said it was a furry thing. You've mentioned before that they are much more open minded when it comes to trans issues. It might well be fine then.

I bet if you sat on the edge of the pool and looked at all the other women they won't all be curvy, some will have no shape at all. Some women have no hips to speak of, some no butt, some are inverted triangle, some are apple shapped and yes some have very womanly curves. My point is women come in all shapes and sizes. In the swimming baths when they are just in their costumes that will be laid bare for all to see. It's good place for comparing yourself probably. Also you haven't even begun to start changing bodyshape really. I am being honest when I say those changes happen further down the line with HRT. You are nowhere near the finished body shape yet.

If it really bothers you have you thought of a swimdress? like a swimsuit but with a bit af a skirt. That can flare out your hips and disguise your shape a bit if you are feeling self concious. You don't have to go full speedo!
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Charlotte Kitty

I'm just gonna wear the swimsuit i want! I don't care anymore just gonna start doing entirely what i want, whenever i want!
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Quote from: Charlotte Kitty on Yesterday at 01:59:43 PMI'm just gonna wear the swimsuit i want! I don't care anymore just gonna start doing entirely what i want, whenever i want!
oooooooh fiesty! I like it Charlotte!!!! You go girl, do whatever makes you happy! I was only trying to help!
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My wife is on that back end of menopause and her body is slowly changing. I noticed the other day that her butt has pretty much flattened. Mine is round and pert. This is the advantage time provides; we continue to move in a feminine direction while our cis counterparts are slowly losing their curves and softness. It levels the playing field a bit.

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Charlotte Kitty

I still want to be plus size but dunno if I really want to limit my options of clothes. I'm already size 16 and often that's too small needing up to 18. If that wasnt a concern I'd be eating several tubs of peanut butter every week now. But ive got too little body fat to get any shape.  Only on my belly.
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Wish I was back to an 18, tops anyway as with my big rib cage (I had biggest lung capacity of any in my class at school when we did a test) and now a C bust I have to get 20 or 22 fit. I wrote a post yesterday but it vanished saying that just look at everyday folks going shopping/work .Minimal make up if any, just jeans and a T shirt or blouse and body shapes are all different. You do you dear and no body will take a second look.
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Quote from: Charlotte Kitty on Yesterday at 02:58:06 PMI still want to be plus size but dunno if I really want to limit my options of clothes. I'm already size 16 and often that's too small needing up to 18. If that wasnt a concern I'd be eating several tubs of peanut butter every week now. But I've got too little body fat to get any shape.  Only on my belly.
Why would you want to be plus size Charlotte? I would kill to be back at size 16! I still had body fat back then.

Your frame should reduce a bit with time, you don't want to be stuck overweight, believe me. And don't loose sight of the fact that surgeons often demand a BMI of 28-30 for GRS which is a tough bar to stay under when you are piling on the pounds.

You will still fill out at size 12 or 14 you know, your belly fat will reduce and fat reserves will start to be stored in feminine areas. It just takes time. Loosing that weight once you have it on HRT is hard. Youa re far better being able to buy size 16 clothing than where I am at UK20 I'm always too large for stuff and I can't wear what I want to wear. There are quite a few brands that don't even go beyond size 16 it's infuriating.

I wouldn't wish being overweight on anyone. It's horrible.
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