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Lori Dee

Quote from: Rinsford on February 07, 2026, 02:28:21 PMMe and my brothers were acting like fools. Dancing, acting like birds, and running. One point, there was an firetruck going by. I was dancing to the sirens as my brother(11) stares at me. The firetruck honked three times which cause me to jump and my brothers(11 and 3) to near flee. Our mother was dying with laughter.

I love it. This made me smile.

Thanks for sharing! And as Charlotte said, never stop being you.
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Pema

Rinsford, that sounds like a wonderful, happy day - simple and yet all we really need. Thank you for sharing it.
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not."
 - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"If you evade suffering you also evade the chance of joy. Pleasure you may get, or pleasures, but you will not be fulfilled. You will not know what it is to come home."
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Pema

Hi, Rinsford! How are things going?
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not."
 - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"If you evade suffering you also evade the chance of joy. Pleasure you may get, or pleasures, but you will not be fulfilled. You will not know what it is to come home."
 - Ursula K. Le Guin
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Rinsford

Quote from: Pema on February 11, 2026, 07:35:34 PMHi, Rinsford! How are things going?

Things are going.. south.

I just got finished a meeting for FBLA then my family had an urgent meeting. We are getting kicked out. We only have 60 days, no car, only two people working to keep "the roof" above nine people's head. I need to step away for a moment to search for houses or a job to help.

Pema

Oh, no. I'm so sorry. Please do what you need to do to take care of yourself and your family. Check back in with us when you can, but no pressure. We're thinking of you, friend.

Love,
Pema
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not."
 - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"If you evade suffering you also evade the chance of joy. Pleasure you may get, or pleasures, but you will not be fulfilled. You will not know what it is to come home."
 - Ursula K. Le Guin

Northern Star Girl

   @Rinsford
Dear Rinsford:
I am wishing you and your family well as you all navigate your
situation with your living situation and finances.

You have my prayers and thoughts with you as you look for housing and
a job so that you can help.

Please keep us updated with your postings on your Blog Thread and various
other threads on the Forum.


My Hugs, Prayers, and positive thoughts,
Danielle
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Lori Dee

Oh, Rinsford. That is a tough situation. I am so sorry that is happening.

As the others have said, do what you need to do to take care of yourself and help out where you can. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

We hope you will check in from time to time to let us know how it is going. We care.
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Charlotte Kitty

This is such sad news and so unfair you are having to face this right now. Sending my love and keeping my fingers crossed that you all get to a stable situation again very soon xx

Hugs, Charlotte
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Pema

I'm thinking of you, Rinsford. I hope you and your family are doing OK. If you have a chance, please let us know.

Love,
Pema
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not."
 - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"If you evade suffering you also evade the chance of joy. Pleasure you may get, or pleasures, but you will not be fulfilled. You will not know what it is to come home."
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Rinsford

Hello, I am back again. I deeply apologize for no updates during the stressful moment. But, me and my family are still looking. I am still unemployed which I hate :(. Dysphoric episodes have gotten worse. I am still in CAMs.

I realized that I am old and my high school years are ending very soon. Maybe not that soon but too soon for my liking. :/

I am now enrolled in Dual Enrollment during the summer and HOPEFULLY, I will have a job by then. I really do hope.

Until we read again,
Rinsford Out

Lori Dee

Thanks for the update, Rinsford.

We missed you and were wondering how you are doing.

Fingers crossed that the job situation works out for you.

Hugs!
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/ 2024 - Voice Training / 2025 - Passport & IDs complete - Started Electrolysis!

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   @Rinsford
Dear Rinford:
I am very glad to see that you are back on the Forum.

No apologies are needed for not posting an update sooner... you have important
life events to sort out for you and your family.

I am wishing your success for your job and success and happiness for your family.
Please keep us updated only if you have the time and feel comfortable sharing.


HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]
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I started HRT March 2015 and
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I love living in a small town in Alaska
I am 46 years old

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Pema

Hi, Rinsford. Thank you for stopping in and giving us an update. I'm sorry the news isn't better on your end.

I hope you're able to find a job - and one you like. And I hope you find that being finished with high school isn't as bad as you expected.

Know that we're thinking of you and wishing you well.

Love,
Pema
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not."
 - Ralph Waldo Emerson

"If you evade suffering you also evade the chance of joy. Pleasure you may get, or pleasures, but you will not be fulfilled. You will not know what it is to come home."
 - Ursula K. Le Guin

Rinsford

March 27, 2026

I think the universe is telling me something. Yesterday, I wore shorts out because it was hot and I felt like me. Truly me. Then later on in the day, I was watching will & grace. It was the episode that Grace said what will "dislike" about Jack (His open ness with his gay identity) is something he haven't accepted in his self. Today, I talk to my CAMs therapist and he is leaving. He told me that I am like an caterpillar, I am in my cacoon state trying to understand how other are so comfortable with their trans identity. I guess it all makes sense.

Rinsford,
Signing off.

Lori Dee

Hi Rinsford!

Transitioning is just a process, not a goal. It is a slow process, and we take many years of doing things to help us along the way. At some point, we get to where we are mostly content with where we are. Then we spend the rest of our lives being that person, living life as that person.

We may not have "completed" transition. There may still be things we want to adjust or have done, but every human does that. They think about what they want in life and take steps to make it happen. That might be moving to someplace they love, finding the "perfect" job, or meeting someone special. That is all just part of living life.

You are young, so you have a lot of time to think about what you want to do and how you want to get there. No one can tell you what is right for you. You will know.

In the meantime, you can work on the things you can control and plan for the things down the road. Plans will change over time, but at least you will have given them plenty of thought. Then, when you make a decision, you will know it is the right one.

Hugs!
My Life is Based on a True Story <-- The Story of Lori
The Story of Lori, Chapter 2
Veteran U.S. Army - SSG (Staff Sergeant) - M60A3 Tank Master Gunner
2017 - GD Diagnosis / 2019- 2nd Diagnosis / 2020 - HRT / 2022 - FFS & Legal Name Change
/ 2024 - Voice Training / 2025 - Passport & IDs complete - Started Electrolysis!

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Charlotte Kitty

Hey Rinsford,
Lovely to see you back again and still hoping for you and your family to find somewhere soon.

Great to hear that you felt truely yourself on that warm day in your shorts. Sometimes it's just these simple moments where we connect with our true selves. It's kinda like the warmest most comfortable feeling for that moment in time.

I think the more of these moments you get, it will help you connect all the dots and figure out what's inside. I'm finding it to work that way, so I do hope you get a similar benefit yourself.

Sending you lots of hugs
Charlotte 😻

Agender / genderqueer MTF
HRT April 25
Name change Sept 25
FFS March 26
GRS Feb 27

Northern Star Girl

  @Rinsford    cc: @Lori Dee

Dear Rinsford:

What Lori Dee stated to you is EXACTLY CORRECT.

Transitioning certainly is a PROCESS.  It takes time and can test your patience.
Many wish to approach this as "I want it all, and I want it now"
      Patience is required.  One step at a time.

Please keep posting your updates.

HUGS, Danielle
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           I am the Hunted Prey : Danielle's Chronicles
                  A New Chapter: Alaskan Danielle's Chronicles    
                        --->Danielle's Continuing Life Adventures


I started HRT March 2015 and
I've been Full-Time since December 2016.
I love living in a small town in Alaska
I am 46 years old

        Email:  --->  alaskandanielle@
                             yahoo.com
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