Hi everyone. I hope everyone had a nice holiday season. Mine was eventful. Not all good, but not all bad either, so I'll call that a win!
I'm writing this because I had a realization the other day that I'm sure many of you have had, and I'm curious how you handled it. I've been moving forward with my social transition, and it has been a mostly positive experience! My friends have all been wonderful. Even those that haven't gotten their heads around it yet are being respectful and encouraging. My family is mostly supportive and loving.
The thing is I am also a person with Parkinson's. If you know anyone with Parkinson's, you probably know that it is a full time job living with it. Exercising is the key to fighting it. Lots of exercise! I'm in the gym 6 days a week. Doing that plus trying to have a life outside of it leaves me with a pretty full plate!
Last weekend, my wife and I went to a meeting of a local LGBTQ+ and spouses support group. All in all, we had a very nice time. But, I was the only transgender person there! Everyone was very nice, but I have to admit, I felt a little conspicuous. That sent my Parkinson's tremor into overdrive! By the time I got it to settle down, I could hardly sign my name!
I have been dealing with moments like that for years now, but this felt different. When we got home, and I had a chance to think about what just happened. I realized that I was exhausted. Living with Parkinson's and transitioning has left me wondering if I have the strength and mental bandwidth to go on.
I know that I probably sound like a winny little bitch, but I have been so sure of my coming out that this feeling really threw me. I'm asking for some advice and perspective here!
