Lost

[Dawn Kellie]

I just read something that makde me think. I have lost something in my life. I absolutely love my wife and have a sense of relief when I'm with her. The rest of my life is just a sense of doing my job or the required chores around my house.
Then after a few years I started dressing again  I know wear panties daily, have colored toe nails and matte fingers.I have found something that gives me some joy. Will I transition? That is a question for later.
Thank you all for being here to listen to my rant

[Northern Star Girl ✅]

    @Dawn Kellie:
Dear Kellie:
First and foremost, you are NOT lost.  You are exploring your life choices and your future life endeavors.

Secondly, I do NOT read your posting as a RANT, but rather a brief summary of where you stand in your life
journey.

It is good to think about these things, and even better to write it out.  Writing down things like this
does a great job of cementing in your mind what you are thinking at the moment and therefore in you
quiet times your thoughts will be replayed in your mind frequently.

Please keep posting, keep sharing, and by all means, keep venting.  You certainly don't wish to disable
your "relief valve."

Along with your other readers and followers I will be eagerly following your future postings as your
feel comfortable sharing.
        ❤️
Many HUGS,
Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

I just read something that makes me think. I have lost something in my life. I absolutely love my wife and have a sense of relief when I'm with her. The rest of my life is just a sense of doing my job or the required chores around my house.
Then after a few years I started dressing again  I know wear panties daily, have colored toe nails and matte fingers.I have found something that gives me some joy. Will I transition? That is a question for later.
Thank you all for being here to listen to my rant

[Dawn Kellie]

Thank you

[Stottie Girl]

I would echo what Danielle said. It certainly doesn't come across as a rant.

Life is about exploration. It's not a race.

As a fellow newbie I'm finding this place to be cathartic and it has allowed me to explore myself in ways I didn't think about.

I've just realised I've only been a member since January 30th! Listen to me going on like I was a founding member!!

I have never posted on any message board before in my life but I'm finding this place to be somewhere where I feel I could share anything, share things I've never voiced out loud to anyone. It is frankly liberating to me.

I really think whatever is going on in your thoughts someone will be able to relate on here.

[Dawn Kellie]

Thank you as well.
At times it feels i have no one to talk to. This site has been amazing. I appreciate all the kind words. Im getting teary eyed writing this.

[Pema]

Kellie, I was confused when I read your post, because it seemed to me like most of what you described was what you have gained. What was it that you lost? And do you miss it?

For my part, it appears that you're on a path to wholeness and authenticity, and I appreciate you sharing all of it with us - even the feelings of having lost something.

Love,
Pema

[ChrissyRyan]

Not a rant.  Enjoy and share what you have. 

Transitioning is not for everyone for a variety of reasons.  There is no timetable except one that you may self impose.