Lost

[Dawn Kellie]

Hello my friends.
Things have gotten a little better for me. Still in a bit of a funk. I'm going to be looking for another job, I don't know if I will find anything. I have some unique skills for where I live, and would.have to drive more than I'm interested for work.
I so appreciate a place like this and can get things out so I can read them and hear what I'm saying. Sometimes that's enough

[Pema]

Good luck with the job search, Kellie. I hope you find something you enjoy, and I hope the change makes a big difference in your life.

[Dawn Kellie]

I love this site. I can put a comment out and get nothing than love

[Dawn Kellie]

I love this site. I can put out my dark thoughts and get nothing but love

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Hey Kellie, we love having you here too. We all face difficulties and I'm very sure we all want to be kind and help as much as we'd wish to be helped in our own time of need.

We are stronger together as one. Love always to all.

Charlotte 😻

[Dawn Kellie]

Thanks Charlotte

[Pema]

Hey Kellie, we love having you here too. We all face difficulties and I'm very sure we all want to be kind and help as much as we'd wish to be helped in our own time of need.

We are stronger together as one. Love always to all.

Charlotte 😻

I second all of this.

[ChrissyRyan]

There needs to be more love in this world.

Always. 

[Dances With Trees]

I prefer Scotch, Kellie. Otherwise, you're telling my story (sans wife).

A few days ago, the strongest woman I've ever known told me she was broken. Sometimes, I think we all are. I know I am. That's why I self medicate. But part of me insists it doesn't need to be this way. I pray that part of me is right. And I pray even harder I give her the chance to prove it. Even if today isn't that day. Massive hugs.

[Dawn Kellie]

Sometimes self medication is the best way to get through the day.
After getting  a lipoma removed it's better than any pain.
My daughters says it's not good.  I suspect they're right. I will get some help.  I may even look into HRR. I'm not sure yet.

[Dawn Kellie]

Things have been better. I may be getting over my funk. I still feel like I've wasted some time in my life
I don't feel like self harm. I do feel like I'm not needed. Just rambling
I feel the love here and it keeps something anchored in me

[Dawn Kellie]

@Northern Star Girl.
Thank you for being a friend

[Dawn Kellie]

I'm getting out of my funk. Though my latest hiccup is my wife is out of state. The only plus is I have a new outfit show up by tomorrow. My first heels.
My next time around I hope I'm born rich and not just good looking. 🤣
Ok, I may not be either, but a girl can hope.

[Dawn Kellie]

Hi all
Things have been unusual. I have a lot of stress.when that happens i dress more. I don't consider that bad. I have to travel across country next week, my wife has a workmanship comp claim for long covid she got due to her occupation. I so don't want to do this but, my wife is my best friend and will do anything for her.
I'm really frustrated at work, and want to find a different job. In this area there isn't a lot of openings for my specialty. I feel trapped. We have some problems with the IRS and they are relentless. So, I have to keep my income level.
Again I'm venting and feel better just saying things out loud,  or typed out.

[Petunia]

Hi Kellie, I don't know how you did it but you are in my head.

I am having almost the exact same issues as you.

My beautiful wife is slowly accepting the slow changes in my appearance and we have been discussing crossdressing, non binary and trans and what it all means.

She doesn't really get it and can't separate it from sexuality.

That's ok, we'll get there.

I now wear womens jeans, tees, underwear, increasingly more feminine earrings (I really love my earrings) , my toenails are always glossy red, fingernails growing out and glossy. 

I wear tinted sunscreen to cover facial blemishes.

I have no body hair below my eyebrows

I have been growing my hair out and our hairdressing backed me up today by saying if you want to have it longer then don't trim it.

Thankfully my wife gave in. I guess I'm lucky to still have hair at my age.

I still look male and I probably always will, but at least I can look in the mirror now.

I'm still depressed, full of wishes but I have a beautiful wife who puts up with someone like me

[Dawn Kellie]

I couldn't do anything with out my wife. Even with my sexual dysfunction she is standing beside me.
@Petunia Im so happy to have someone that understands. Im always here if you need to chat.