To quote Owen Wilson's character in Armageddon:
"Great, I got that "excited/scared" feeling. Like 98% excited, 2% scared. Or maybe it's more - It could be two - it could be 98% scared, 2% excited but that's what makes it so intense, it's so - confused. I can't really figure it out."
You're scared of the unknown, sweetie. It's 100% entirely understandable and something that happens to all of us. People who don't feel this way tend to end up meeting a grisly end through sheer foolhardiness. You don't know what's going to happen and you can't control what you don't know. So it kicks in a self-defence mechanism designed to protect you from being hurt.
It's okay to feel this way. Being scared is a perfectly natural human response. The trick is to not let it control you. To feel the fear and do it anyway, as it were. Which is easier said than done, granted.
Some advice I have for you is... you don't know the people on this cruise, and they don't know you. You will be a clean slate to them. And they to you. I have found it scarier to do things when it concerns people you care about. Because what they think matters more to you. People you don't know, it doesn't really matter if they think something or another. You're never going to see them again afterwards. Use the opportunity as a training aid to be yourself around people whose opinions won't affect you too deeply. See it as a chance to experience who you are free from emotional ties. To better prepare you for the future.
And try to keep in mind that everyone is there to enjoy their own trip. You're really all there for the same reason. To get away and have a space of time where you can indulge yourself away from the day-to-day of your normal life. As a result, people tend to be not so stressed out by issues they're dealing with and more likely to just go with the flow. Everyone is there for the same reason as you, sweetie. That changes how people act and react to things... where otherwise people may be stressed out by job deadlines or travel delays or whatever else. This changes how people react to things and deal with things. Being on a cruise is more laid back just by the nature of what it is. You're all there to enjoy the sights and relax.
Focus on the things you can control, honey. And what you can't... let that take care of itself. You'll deal with whatever it is whenever it happens. Believe in yourself. I believe in you.
*big hugs*
