Welcome to Susan's Place, Scrambles!
I added paragraph breaks to your introduction to make it a little less imposing to read.
First of all, I want you to know that you are valid. Full stop. You don't owe anyone a certain look or a certain timeline to prove who you are. Being trans isn't about passing — it's about knowing who you are inside, and you clearly do. The people telling you otherwise are wrong, plain and simple.
It sounds like you've done a lot of really hard work to get to where you are. Questioning since you were 10, trying out different pronouns, finding what fits and what doesn't — that's not confusion, that's a journey. And you should be proud of yourself for having the courage to say "I am a boy" out loud, even when the world around you is making that difficult.
About your mom — I hear you. Even when we know someone is likely to be supportive, coming out is still scary. But from what you've described, she sounds like someone who loves you and has already shown she's willing to walk this road with you. When you're ready, I think you might be surprised at how okay it's going to be. There's no rush though. You'll know when the time is right.
I'm really glad you have your boyfriend and your theatre teacher in your corner. Having even just a couple of people who truly see you makes all the difference.
You came here looking for resources and confidence, and you've come to the right place. Look around, read some stories from other guys who've been where you are, and don't be afraid to ask questions. You're not alone here.
Welcome home, kiddo!
— Susan💜
