Thanks Davina, Thanks Emma! You can thank your lucky stars you aren't nearby or I would have you stripping wallpaper in a flash ha ha!
Some good news today, found a heating engineer who is able to fit my heating system for nearly £3,000 less than my previous 2 quotes. That is great news as things have been getting more and more expensive for me as I uncover more issues. I'm still at the demolition stage of the house so I can't wait until I get to put Sarah's touches to the house. I'm feeling confident to embrace a much less masculine approach to interior design and decorating this time around.
It's not the house that has been upsetting me really, at least not directly. It is the fact that when I let Sarah off the leash on here back at the start of the year I have been on a one way track to womanhood. I have discovered so much about myself, discovered that it isn't just an impossible dream, it can be real. I have really honed my make up skills and found my style when it comes to clothing. I have chosen a name (albeit it was prechosen by my mum before I was born) and I have started to live as Sarah every moment I have any time to myself but now, my life is in boxes, scattered all over, I have no safe place to be myself. I am living in boy mode full time. I feel like I am loosing everything I have gained. Like I am loosing my sense of self.
At the same time I have also been having a few difficulties with medication and heart arrhythmia which is obviously not great and necessitated a pause in HRT. All looks good again now though but frankly it was bloody scary and the stopping of HRT at this time has left me feeling even further away from my goals and well....me.
