Hi everyone,
It's been a long time since I was last here around 2016 or so. I don't have access to that account anymore but some of the post are still there, and honestly, I wasn't very active back then. Mostly just reading, trying to understand myself, and quietly relating to other people's posts.
A lot has happened since then, but in some ways it also feels like I've been circling the same place for years.
I've been dealing with these feelings for a long time, and I've tried pretty hard to ignore them or push them down. I kept hoping it would just go away or become manageable, but that hasn't really worked. If anything, it's just gotten heavier over time.
Right now I feel kind of stuck in between like I'm not really living as myself, but also can't go back to pretending this isn't part of me. Some days it just feels like I'm going through the motions.
I'm still figuring things out, and I don't really know what my path looks like yet. I think I'm here because I need a place where I don't have to hide from this, and where I can learn from people who understand.
So... I guess this is a bit of a re-introduction.
It's good to be back.
— Kayy!
