Hi KristaMy name is
Sarah and I would also like to formally, Welcome you to Susan's Place!
I see that other members of Susan's have also welcomed you as well.
First, you are not alone and you are among people who understand far more than you may realize. It is never too late and you are never too old to understand yourself more deeply or to take steps, at your own pace, toward peace.
What you described about feelings going quiet for long periods is something many here will recognize. In my experience, those feelings do not simply disappear. They may become silent for a time, or sit in the background while life carries on, but often they return with renewed intensity. Many members here on Susan's have lived through exactly that.
In my own case, for more than ten years before I changed my life around, the feeling, the longing, the wanting to be female grew stronger and stronger. It did not lessen with time. It became clearer.
I cannot offer much wisdom about managing marriage or family while going through this, because I changed my life before those situations arose for me. But many members here have faced exactly those challenges. Some relationships survived, some did not and people here can speak honestly about both outcomes. You will find understanding voices.
I also sense you may still be trying to understand who you are and that is perfectly all right. There is no prize for rushing. If I may gently suggest it, speaking with a therapist, psychologist or psychiatrist who is thoughtful and experienced may help you explore these feelings and understand yourself more clearly.
Most importantly, there is no rush. Take as much time as you need. Many people here started later in life, some much later and found their way. Again, you are never too old.
You can say as much or as little as you want here. You can ask questions, share fears, vent, or simply read quietly until you feel ready. We are here to help and there is real sisterhood and support to be found.
Wishing you peace as you take these first steps. Reaching out as you just did takes courage.
Once you feel comfortable here, it would be appreciated if you add a little bit more about yourself in the other forums and threads. I would appreciate it very much as, I'm always interested in learning something new about new members.
In addition members of Susan's will more than likely discuss problems or issues that are similar to yours as most have experienced these issues as well.
Please keep in mind when posting that this is an
ALL AGES PUBLIC Forum and the internet never forgets. Do not post anything that you do not want to be made public.
Take care and all the best for the future.
Once again, Welcome to Susan's Place!Best Wishes AlwaysSarah BGlobal Moderator@Devlyn @Jessica_Rose @Mariah @Northern Star Girl @Lori Dee @Charlotte_Ringwood @KristaFairchild
