Hey all thx for having me

[Valerie.Val]

Table football (I can't use the S word)? as in Subutteo or are you talking Foosball.

😘 Sorry for the s word, just because we're on a US server. 😜 I am not a native speaker and yeah foosball is what I meant.

My closest long time male friends are good guys really, they reject all toxic masculinity and are a nerdy bunch. No wonder I gravitated to them.

Unfortunately as I mentioned, therapists are super hard to find, here, and I can't be too picky. I'll see if online therapy is available here.

@Gina P that sound wonderful, I'm glad you found such a good person to help you along!

@tammy753 I hear you. well. Maybe I need to look for therapists that are out of my price range. Maybe I can get help faster.

[Gina P]

My Therapist is amazing and we have never had an in person session although she is pushing for one. One of my issues is Agoraphobia and Social Anxiety. If none are available locally go for online. Just having someone to talk to that you can share those super dark thoughts with is worth 100000 times the cost.

Had to look up Agrophobia. I used go have terrible social anxiety. Funny thing is that went away as I transitioned. I believe it was from acting and pretending that I was something I was not, A MAN! Deeply feared going out, especially going into a city, meeting new people, or traveling. I would like to give my therapist the credit, but in all actuality it came from the confidence of just dressing and being myself. It seams to be the opposite of what one would expect, right.

[tammy753]

My Therapist is $100 a session. She offered to do a session every 2weeks due to cost. I have opted for weekly but I don't have a family like you. You are worth the cost of therapy!

Be upfront about your financial situation some will lower the cost if you are paying out of pocket.

[Stottie Girl]

Had to look up Agrophobia. I used go have terrible social anxiety. Funny thing is that went away as I transitioned. I believe it was from acting and pretending that I was something I was not, A MAN! Deeply feared going out, especially going into a city, meeting new people, or traveling. I would like to give my therapist the credit, but in all actuality it came from the confidence of just dressing and being myself. It seams to be the opposite of what one would expect, right.

@Gina P @tammy753

That is interesting Gina. I am an introvert not really an agoraphobic but I have to force myself to go out on my own. I have never been to a cafe on my own, rarely do anything without someone else there and now I am mostly alone it means I have been stuck in a rut not doing anything at all really.

I have noticed that since being on here my female inner self has blossommed and she is outgoing, bubbly, friendly, caring, confident. I have found that this is giving me much more confidence in real life. I have started trying to get out more on my own. I'm using these trips to show people the castles and interesting places where I live to build more confidence but I'm hoping to develop this further and pluck up the courage to go to cafe's or art galleries and the like, all on my lonesome. I could never have contemplated this before I came here. I am hopeful that when I finally transition socially I will be able to have more confidence and be able to enjoy life more. The signs are good.

Tammy, you might find that as you start to explore transition and your sense of self grows, you might be able to start overcoming the Agoraphobia too. Your therapist should be able to help you with this. My auntie is Agoraphobic and it has blighted her life a bit. If you can get control of it, it will do you the power of good.