Not Feminine enough?

[tammy753]

They were looking directly at me and I don't understand why they would be yelling at me I was never even close to them. I surprisingly not to upset like I would have been in the past. I think I am starting to come to the point that I need to stop letting other people have the power over me. But its not a fun experience to have people yelling at you when you don't even know them and have never interacted with them.

[Petunia]

Krista, everytime you write something it is something I could have written.

Of all the girls here your story is the closest to mine.

My wife doesn't want me outside crossdressed because of 1. safety and 2. embarrasment if I get seen by someone who knows me.

The city I live in had a big problem years ago with gay bashings and murders.
It's not that bad now but as the right wing becomes more popular there has been a rise in anti queer community rhetoric.

I am going to be embarrased when some of my old friends find out about me, but for now I have actually walked past a few of them and not been recognised.

[Petunia]

Tammy, I feel for you having to put up with idiots like that.

It's obvious the kid has imbeciles for parents. They have bred hatred.

If you are able to walk away unhurt then you are the winner.

There are plenty of other people wasting space in the world so it's pointless wasting time thinking about them.

Just be safe

[tammy753]

The more I think about it the more defiant I feel. That song I posted keeps running through my head:

"I will do it like I can
Right in your face"

Not sure I am that brave but I am feeling tired of letting other people tell me how to live. I hope I can build on this feeling.

[KristaFairchild]

My therapist keeps promising I will reach that point of not caring. I hope she is right.

I hope to get this attitude

That's the common pattern. Holding steady as internal and external forces affect us isn't easy, but it usually works