Quote from: Finally Anna on Today at 10:56:23 AMAnd still we (well, at least I) have this doubt, this fear, this hesitation, about just painting them RED. I wil probably get there in the end, or not, but my pace is a bit slow. I integrate things with the speed that comes naturally to me. No insane speeding. Hopefully not too much braking. As it feels good and natural.
I agree about the process being personal and at the speed you need. I can look back and wish I hasn't taken two years to get beyond simple subtle earrings and nail polish, but I also know that is what I had to do. I tried something, felt overwhelmed at first, waited for my system to accept it, and then I was ready for more.
People told me I should just get over it and dress any way I wanted. I thought they were either crazy or they didn't understand the deeply conservative area I live in.
I was wrong on both counts but I still had to find my own pace.
The great part was it was like my first time on a roller coaster. Terrified to try it. Has good reasons. Tried it. Screamed and felt my bones feel weak. Then got in line to do it again.
In the end, it was so joyous I had to try more things. It hasn't changed, either. Wear a wig?! Who would do that? Would you like 9 reasons not to? I have them. No one is convincing me otherwise.
Yet
But my feminine soul hopes someone will encourage me. Gently push. Because dammit I love how I feel and look in my favorite wig!
I can't help but laugh at myself - in a kind way
