Quote from: tammy753 on Today at 12:19:57 PMHonestly, I was so angry before. I knew what I was and took out my anger on everyone around me. My brother and others comment on it sometimes. I haven't said anything to anyone yet. I guess the other thing is that thing down there is no longer active.
Honestly, I don't think I will ever be able to rid myself of anger. If anything, it has intensified over the years. As I said on a friend's podcast, I wouldn't feel this way if I didn't have to deal with certain bigoted family members (they don't say anything transphobic 99.9% of the time. But they let the mask slip and don't realize how dumb they are for doing it in front of me.) I NEVER forget things like this. Factor in our supremely evil government now officially putting targets on our backs, that has just added more fuel to the fire.
Having said that, I don't hold back anymore AT ALL, not in person. This is the only site where I try to watch what I say. I had a previous account that was banned once I said some stuff to a mod that was over the line, and I will always take responsibility for what I said. So, I am watching my tongue around here. Here's why: I don't have anyone to really vent to without feeling I am just destroying them, and that makes me feel incredibly guilty, and THAT leads to very dark thoughts, and I don't like being in that headspace. So, I decided to come full circle and return here.
I'm sorry if this derailed things a bit. I will return you to your regularly scheduled program. But first, here's Portia Porcupine with this afternoon's weather.
