Quote from: Charlotte Kitty on Today at 11:32:00 AMI think that's quite common that people are available for you when things are going easy or you're exactly as they'd like you to be. Changes when things are tougher or they don't want to talk so much. Can be hard when you often just rely on yourself.
Sending you lots of warm hugs and hoping you can get back to the things you enjoy soon. Tough to do much when your head is in circles, but try to find some you time and do something that makes you feel even a little better. Its so tough though.
Charlotte ❤️
Yeah, I hate it. It's gotten to the point where I spend more time talking to myself or talking to Portia. I know none of that is normal. But, what passes as 'normal' in so many people's eyes is pretty screwed up, if ya ask me.
To give you an idea of what the Ambient guitar stuff sounds like, here's a video. I use an OBNE signal blender to have the clean signal and a pair of effected channels. It's just my phone up against the speaker. So, the audio isn't top-shelf quality. But, to be fair, even if I were using my interface and mics, it wouldn't be top-shelf since I am not that good at audio engineering.
🔗It's funny because back in the day, I would upload all of this live Metal footage that I bought from people. That got decent views. Once I dumped that and my short-lived podcast (that no one cared about anyway), the views dropped like a rock. "What's all this weird noise stuff?" It's what I like to do. Yeah, there is some Death Metal stuff. But my skills have dropped way, way off there. I attempted to play "Nutra-Death" by Hideous Mangleus a while back. When it got to the fast part, my arms and wrists locked up. LOL I was, like, "Ugh. I sound as bad as I did in the early 90s". But, that's the way that goes. Maybe I will get that back. But, at this point, I just don't know.
