And if so, does your partner know what is going on? I have been involved with my partner, "J", for six years. When I really started experiencing gender stuff three years ago, I told her up front. She asks me periodically if I still want to be a boy. I tell her I don't know yet. Rather, I tell her that I do, but I am uncertain about the risks. I finally got a letter from my new insurance company two days ago...I will wait until I have the card in my hand before I get us to therapy. This is so hard. Last night, I thought I heard a noise. I quietly grabbed my steer horn from my dresser, and ventured out into the house. I crept to each room ready to dispatch any intruder. When I returned to bed, confident that the house was interloper-free, J roused slightly and asked if I was o.k. I told her I thought I heard something and just did a perimeter check. I don't think most normal chicks do this. In fact, most normal GUYS may not. I am very protective this way. Plus, we are considered a lesbian couple, and J may be traumatized by becoming "straight". What is your experience? I don't feel like a lesbian, I don't really feel girly in any way. Thanks in advance for any advice/thoughts.
