Quote from: interalia on April 04, 2009, 01:29:02 AM
Do you feel you were supposed to be your birth sex?
I don't feel any kind of supposed to's. I don't really believe in pre-destination. i believe we are who we always are, like a giant catipiliar slide show through time. I'm still just being born, at the same time that I'm dying. So I don't really relate to your premise. I've always been a girl, even when I was a boy. I've always been a boy, even when I was always a girl. It's all sort of concurrent to me, and whatever happens is me. Because, how could I be anyone but me?
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Or do you feel you were supposed to be your perceived brain sex?
See above I guess. Don't buy into "supposed" tos. The only thing supposed to is good for is regret. Which I'll be honest, I'm not some perfect buddha, and my ideals are not always my feelings at any given time. But I feel like the over-arching narrative that is my life, is tied to being a girl. When I was little, my gender was defined in the way that I was a girl who was presenting as a boy. And now I am a girl who is presenting as a girl. I may eventually become a girl who is presenting as a werewolf. But the me who is me is a girl, whatever that is.
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Oh, and why?
Because I'm a silly goober.
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And uh... how does that affect you need/desire to transition?
I don't see it as a transition. Just as a less filtered expression of my identity, for the purposes of being closer to my life, and being closer to the world and people in it. Deception creates distance, and then isolation. Honesty binds hearts. And as I conquer more and more of my insecurities and trust issues about people---I want to swap blood with the world more and more.