New here - confused

[fae_reborn]

wow - thank you so much for being here. i just had a really long talk with my mom and i guess the only choice i have to make right now is wether to make a choice. on monday i go see the endocrinologist and all i have to do is either make a choice or tell her im not ready and ill start some sort of medication to prevent the start of anymore and to control wats already going on as far as body things. dr. felkner is my therapist an my mom doesn't agree with her she said that no matter wat shed always love me an her an dad r fine with me "walking a middle line" for a wile. that she was fine with me being a girl or a boy. idk but im pretty sure im a girl i just dont know wats going to hapen it scares me an how can i feel like a girl wen i grew up a boy i mean i read about it here in the forums and wiki but is this the same thing? anyhow i cant use chat at home cuz of my younger sisters we have a filter that stops it ill try at the library tomorow. it helps that you r al so helpful thogh. thank u!

That is great news hun!  I'm glad that they are not forcing you to make a decision immediately, and that medically there is nothing pressing.  The "preventive" medications they will give you will allow you time to sort things out in your mind.  You're very lucky that your parents are so supportive and accepting of you, no matter what decision you make.

As Laura said, many of us had to grow up as boys, and dealt with a lot of pain and frustration with not being able to live as our true selves until later.  You have a great opportunity to choose, and it sounds like you will have the opportunity to socialize with other girls while in school (if you decide to live as a girl) who will "fill you in" as Laura said.

Don't worry about "what will happen" so much, because you will stress yourself out with all the "what ifs."  Just take one day at a time, and follow your heart.  Listen to your heart and it will tell you what you need to do.  Medically speaking, your doctors will help you take care of medications and surgeries, if any, when the time comes.  Socially, that's another demon all together.  As I said, take one day at a time, and if someone makes a rude comment, ignore them.  People who do that do so to make themselves feel better.  Rise above that sweetie, and you'll do fine.

[Michelle.]

Hello again Confused,

If you feel that Dr. Felkner is rushing you, than it might be time to obtain a therapist who is more receptive to your needs.

About the chat rooms at Susans. It may not be the filter at home. Try dowloading Java. I'll find and post here for you a thread link that has the specific version you need.

Again best of luck to you in your journey.

Mich'
Post Merge: July 11, 2009, 04:19:11 PM
http://java.sun.com/javase/downloads/?intcmp=1281

You want the Java SE Runtime Environment (JRE)

Susan... Please forgive my copy/paste job of a prior post of yours.

[confused1996]

thank you all so much. im still amazed at how much suport there is here. i guess maybe it wont be so bad afterall just maybe though.

[heatherrose]

Thank you all so much. I'm still amazed at how much support there is here.

I started coming around here three years ago, looking for some one that would
understand how I felt and what I was going through. The support that I have
found here, is the reason I keep coming back. Now that my wings have dried and
I can fly on my own. I come here to provide a shoulder to cry on or an ear to
chew off for someone else who is just emerging from their chrysalis.

I guess maybe it wont be so bad after all, just maybe though.

Before "they" let you know that you had "a problem", did YOU have "a problem"?
Were you happy with being YOU? If you were happy, what has changed? Expect
for a bit of extra information about your body in the form of words, nothing right?
You're still YOU, right? So in reality the only thing that has changed is that now
someone, somewhere has printed a label just for you, don't let them put it on you.
To quote that great sea faring philosopher, (say it with me), "I yam, what I yam."
I didn't hear you, say it again, "I yam, what I yam". So you're a Yam? 
Sweety, you will be just fine and as soon as your wings dry...

you will be able to fly too.

[confused1996]

sorry all, been banned from the computer for a wile, be back on next week hopefuly not supposed to be on now.......

[Osiris]

Sorry to hear that confused. Hope things are going well for ya.

[heatherrose]

You have been missed.