Quote from: Jen on May 25, 2010, 02:53:42 AM
If one day in the future you feel you have found a cure, what will you do to mitigate the social fallout such a claim would have for this community? I get the impression from your posts that you really do have a benevolent nature and I can believe you have noble intentions, but you have to realize any hint that this is all just a choice would carry consequences, for those that have already transitioned and for those that would rather not mess with their sense of self, which would be measured in lives lost and lives ruined. Those lives hopefully will be a part of the cost you consider.
I can illustrate how I feel about this best by a quick story. During transition I had a very dear friend. She was about my age, and we were transitioning together. Going through transition, we both had terrible trials, but we could always count on one another. We became the poster-children for the trans community, young, intelligent, passable women that others found to be inspirational. When I began to question whether transition was right for me, she never did. We talked for hours upon hours debating the merits of transition vs attempting to live life without it and find another way. In the end, I made a choice and left the path. I moved away, though we vowed to remain friends.
A year passed and I was invited to visit her. Returned to our old apartment I was filled with wonderful memories of the time we spent together. Meeting her (now post SRS) we could see how much we had changed in a single year. She and I were both happy but in different ways. Both of us lamented the things we envied about the other and we shared a deep and abiding kinship that would never dissipate.
Our lives have mirrored one anothers' since that time with both of us finishing college around the same time, both of us getting married, and both of us seeking to adopt children. She is truly one of my best friends and closest confidants.
I would never for a moment take away her happiness, the happiness she obtained by transitioning fully to the woman I believe she is. I love her with the love of a tender friend and am happy she has obtained all that she ever sought after in life.
Stories like hers are the exception though and not the rule. Few are as fortunate as she is (or for that matter, as I was). Due to this I feel it important that if a cure can be found, that others be made aware of it even if the world will then look down at people like my friend. The reality is there are far far more that will be helped than hurt by the existence of such a cure and that weighs heavily on my mind.
Truth be told, a cure is a MASSIVE "if". It probably will never manifest and my efforts will likely end up largely in vain, but I recognize a calling to do it, and to date what I have learned has helped me and others like me. I only hope in the meantime more people can find the peace my dear friend has.
Quote from: ƃuıxǝʌ on May 25, 2010, 02:22:23 AM
Well hey, I'm an atheist - I work with near certainties, not maybes. We still need people chasing the maybes though, in case one of their theories strikes gold.
I don't hold much hope for your psychological cure; something like gender identity gets firmly rooted in our minds as children and I'm fairly certain that removing it will cause more damage than good - or drastically and permanently alter a person's mind, which will essentially be a death of self.
But that doesn't really answer my question of "why not?" with regards to you transitioning. Do you feel that the cure (transition) is worse than the disease (GID)?
Transition can indeed be more costly than GID in some cases. But it is truly individual. I have known some for whom there seems to be no alternative, that any cost associated with transition is worth it to relieve the pain of their GID.
For me transition held few unmanageable costs (though the several costs I list are detailed on my blog). I could have eventually disappeared into a sea of cis-gendered people as a young woman never to be seen as trans again, but I felt strongly that if I *could* make it without transition, I *should*, if for nothing else than for the sake of all those who couldn't disappear into that same sea of cis-gendered people who would lose spouses, family, employment, friends, social status, risk poverty, destitution, and potential suicide all to transition. I felt those people deserved a chance at happiness too, happiness that wouldn't cost so much that was dear to them.
So here I am, attempted to do my best to figure out this crazy condition we have, how it operates, why it does what it does and ultimately how to fix it. I feel I could still quietly transition into the night, but I feel doing so would be doing a great disservice to those I could potential help - seeing myself in an incredibly unique position to do so.
In the end, as I mentioned before, it may all end up for nothing, but ultimately I could not feel I was true to myself unless I was giving of my talents and strengths for the uplifting of others.