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Started by Dana Lane, April 26, 2010, 06:10:10 AM

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Dana Lane

Close to 20 years ago I ended my belief in god. Before that I always believed there was a god but never really went to church and figured I was pretty much doomed to hell. So one day I became "born again" and bought a bible as well as a cassette version to listen to when I was trucking down the road (over the road driver). As I was listening to the bible I would hear some things that just didn't sound right. And I would try to ignore them but then all of a sudden "BAM". I was awake.

Looking back on that moment feels kind of like being in The Matrix. Waking up and looking around at all the mindless zombies around me. I am only using that phrase to explain the weirdness of it.

Once you have awaken from something like that you can't possibly go back. At least I don't see how you could because all of a sudden the world makes sense. And the guilt is gone.

I have a hard time keeping an open mind when debating religion. I have been told before on this forum that I have a 'closed mind' because of that. Am I the only one that can't carry on an intelligent conversation with someone who wants me to consider their thoughts on a god?  What is the difference between some mentally disturbed person talking to voices in a wall and a religious person talking to a voice in the sky? I just can't justify it.

Am I alone here? btw, I don't mean to offend anyone but I need to get my thoughts out on this. More to follow.

Hugs to everyone!
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confused

i had an 'awakening' similar to that
but i came to terms that either sides could be right , i , like you , wonder how religion sometimes makes people as if they were hypnotized or something . but i respect other people's believe and can't really deny that they could be right . i mean they have their arguments and reasons , i just don't buy it
i don't mind discussing religion as well as anything , because i could learn something out of any discussion about anything
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cynthialee

I was an unbeliever, didnt buy into the god idea, then one day I met the Goddess and she opened my eyes. A few years later when I had a really rough test of faith she showed up again, then one more time a few years back when I was ready to end it.
I am not talking a vision or an ideal, I mean a physicaly speaking, physicaly walking entity.
I have no mission or any need to seek converts for the goddess, just knowing is enough.
So it is said that if you know your enemies and know yourself, you can win a hundred battles without a single loss.
If you only know yourself, but not your opponent, you may win or may lose.
If you know neither yourself nor your enemy, you will always endanger yourself.
Sun Tsu 'The art of War'
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Dana Lane

Quote from: something else on April 26, 2010, 06:54:20 AM
i had an 'awakening' similar to that
but i came to terms that either sides could be right , i , like you , wonder how religion sometimes makes people as if they were hypnotized or something . but i respect other people's believe and can't really deny that they could be right . i mean they have their arguments and reasons , i just don't buy it
i don't mind discussing religion as well as anything , because i could learn something out of any discussion about anything

I guess I can understand how the bible came about. Way back in the day people weren't very bright. Science was not understood in the least and the only way people could explain what they saw was by a god. I understand the concept but I believe we should have already reached a point where we realize the huge disconnect between reality and fantasy. To me it is kind of like arguing about the existence of santa clause or the tooth fairy. I just can't do it.
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Kay

Hi Dana,
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I felt similarly about religion and 'waking up.'  Once you know something is wrong or just doesn't fit within the scheme it is porported to...you just can't go back to being ignorant anymore.  The inconsistencies tend to stick out like red dots on a blue horizon...you just can't continue to ignore them.
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I'm actually agnostic, rather than athiest. 
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I suppose for me, the difference between the two is more about mutual respect for the person, and respect for the possibility of the unknown.  Almost nothing in this world is certain.  There is a lot of room for interpretation and for the unknown.  Views and perspectives change.  1000 years from now, we'll all be considered neanderthals for the way we view the world.  Such is the plight of history, generation to generation. 
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In the end, closed-minded is a matter of perspective.
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There are those that will call you closed-minded...simply because you don't automatically fall in-line with their dogma.  They confuse open-minded...with weak-minded.
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Then there are those that will call you closed-minded...simply for having your own opinions and beliefs, and standing by them.  Not much different from the above.  Especially when the one accusing you of being closed-minded won't consider your arguments with consideration equal to that which they demand of you.
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To me, being-closed minded is being unwilling to discuss or consider new information.  Again...New information.  Old perspectives/information discarded time and again can get tiresome to discuss ad nauseum.   At those times, I simply remove myself from the argument/discussion whenever possible, especially if my patience is wearing thin.  It's just not worth my time or the frustration.  Visible impatience with tired themes can often be mistaken for closed-mindedness.  (eg.  Gravity?  Does it exist?  I might entertain someone's discussion of denial of gravity a time or two out of sheer morbid curiosity.  But once the basic tenants of their argument are exhausted and refuted...there is little reason to continue to entertain such a position for the 50th...100th...etc time as it remains unchanged.)
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Am I the only one that can't carry on an intelligent conversation with someone who wants me to consider their thoughts on a god?
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It all depends.  There are precious few religious people that I know that are knowledgeable enough in their religion, and mature enough...both intellectually and emotionally...to discuss religion with.  Most just can't take the pressure of any sort of scrutiny.  With those precious few though, the conversations can be very interesting.  It's not like discussing math or basic physics though.  It's more akin to discussing philosophy or art.   Unfortunately, the vast majority of religious individuals can be difficult to discuss anything more than the rudimentary philosophical concepts with before the discussion spirals downard.
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What is the difference between some mentally disturbed person talking to voices in a wall and a religious person talking to a voice in the sky? I just can't justify it.
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Or someone talking to themself (and answering)?  Or to the spirits of their ancestors?  Or to a dead loved one at a funeral?  No, personally I don't subscribe to it.  I can't justify it for myself.  It's not a logical thing though...it's emotional.  For some, it helps them to cope.  It's when the walls/god starts verbally talking back is when you need to be concerned.   When one becomes unable to separate their own inner voices from their external hopes/beliefs and/or coping mechanisms.  Often if you want to believe something badly enough...you're going to find it...even if you have to manufacture it.  'Mentally disturbed' only really comes into play when such distinctions are lost.  Though I do admit, many of the religious (especially some in my family)  really toe that line.
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Of course...that said...when "mentally disturbed" is the norm...isn't it everyone else that is considered crazy?  ;)
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LordKAT

QuoteOf course...that said...when "mentally disturbed" is the norm...isn't it everyone else that is considered crazy?  ;)


Totally agree.
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tekla

For me it wasn't an overnight deal, or that one big issue arose.  I was in Catholic school - and had been since first grade - and it just kinda gradually slipped away.  Perhaps it was the hard core diet of science that in the post-Sputnik world was stressed so hard, and taught so determinability, perhaps it was just too much other stuff all piling on until the weight of all those things that just didn't add up collapsed it, or just covered it.
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Hikari

For me it was simple, if there was a God then surely that god wasn't worth believing in. he/she/it had cursed me to live in the wrong gender, let suffering run rampant, allowed good people to die and bad people to live. So when I was about 12 I made the decisions that not only was there no proof, and even if proof were discovered tomorrow I didn't want to worship such a thing that would allow those things.

It might seem like an extreme viewpoint for a 12 year old to take, but even now at 24 I cannot say it was the wrong position. If there were a god, then it's morals are at odds with my own, and things make an awful lot more sense when you assume that the actions both positive and negative in this world are performed by people who totally have free will and only the consequences other people set for their actions.

As far as the open/close minded thing goes; I think it is a matter of perspective. I can talk about the theory of god all day, therefore I'd like to consider myself open minded, I have been called close minded by theists for not being swayed by their arguments, but that is their perspective, they weren't swayed by mine either so by their logic they are close minded as well. The fact of the matter is, even dealing with concrete political issues a Republican isn't likely to become a Socialist just from someone talking about the unequal distribution of wealth. There is nothing wrong with that, we are the sum of our experiences, and at points we have to be confident in our experiences.
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Dana Lane

Thanks to everyone for sharing their viewpoints. Very helpful!
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lisagurl

QuoteAm I alone here? btw, I don't mean to offend anyone but I need to get my thoughts out on this. More to follow.

I am agnostic but have met spiritual people. Believing on God is a whole lot different than believing in religion. Everyone has a little different experience of reality. The way the brain handles the imagination and beliefs is different for many. Have you ever felt Deja vu? It is a different feeling. Some need and answer to the question of were did it all come from and have fear of what happens at death. For them believing is a way to cope. Let them have their grooves.
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Ashley Allison

Hi there Dana!

I too share your lack in belief in gods/god.  At sometimes I think it is crazy that people try to talk to a big being in the sky, that in all possibilities doesn't exist.  For me, I have come to realize that people don't choose this lifestyle of religiosity.  They are indoctrination into it at a young age, or when they are in need of help.  It is really sad for this happen to people, or to see people in a state of what I would call ignorant.  I don't have anything against them for this reason... And, I just wanted to let you know you aren't the only one out there :)

People have a belief in belief in my opinion; meaning people want to have believe in the concept of faith; whether it is there god or not.  I think that is one of the main reasons why atheist, like you and I, are despised to a degree.  Because we fall outside of this doctrine, not believing in anything.

In relation to being trans, I definitely fear some apprehension about coming out with my gender issues to my family because of this.  I think my Mom will pull my "Atheist" card, and explain my gender issues as stemming from my atheism.  I realize within myself that this is completely untrue, as my gender issues were there anyways when I was religious nine years ago.  Certainly, it isn't an easy path regarding atheism and gender dysphoria :)

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