Finally, I am free to move (hard bandages off, urinary pipe too), so I have a time to write little more of my story. All that begun one month ago, when, during routine x-ray of my hips, something strange was found. My hips were ok, but some shadow was found just in the root of my penis. After further inspection they found small tumor, of the size of a peas. After test of the sample taken from it, it was clear that it is cancer. I had to go to the hospital out of my country to do further tests, and eventually surgery. After full week of tests and inspections, my doctor told me that the cancer is not too big, but still there is no other way to treat it but surgically. It is in what they call it "type II", it was encapsulated (no metastases) but in the worst possible place! I had three options, all surgical. The first one was total penectomy, what means complete amputation of the penis. That would give me highest "survival rate" – 95%, if combined with bilateral orchietomy (removal of testes). In most cases, orchietomy is recommended because it increase survival rate by 5-10%. Second option was similar, but with penis glans transplanted to the penis root. It will give same survival rate, but with advantage of not losing the most sensitive part of the penis. The third option was "wide local excision". This means that cancer would be removed along with a border of healthy tissue around it. Cavity formed would be filled by silicon foam to return normal look of your penis. That way, my penis would be preserved (but it would be inactive), but survival rate would be decreased by 10%. Life is more important than anything, so I was ready to accept the second option, even it was very painful to accept. However, surgeon told me about another option, which is not usual (he had only four patients who chosen it in his 25 years career), but I have to take it under consideration. It is penectomy combined with vaginoplasty. It would be similar to "usual" gender-reassignment surgery, just the part of the penis around its root would be removed together with a cancer. At first I didn't take that option at all as something realistic. I had free weekend to choose the surgery and to return to the hospital. After many discussions with my sister and my friends, as well as three ex-patients who had similar surgeries, I decided to try that last option!
I had my surgery last Wednesday in one of leading hospitals in UK. Just three days ago, I was released of that hard bandages, and this morning they removed me all, including peeing-pipe, so I can use my "new stuff" to pie. I am steel under sedatives, so I have no any feeling there, but at least I can see it. To be frank, it is very strange feeling. To see "object of your wishes" as part of your own body is really very strange feeling. Actually, the first look aroused me, and I nearly felt erection (in my brain only, of course), like it is not my own body. It is just the first impression, but really, it doesn't look bad, even deep scars are still visible. I am now very curious what will be feeling there when I stop with pain-killers? Would I feel that my penis is inside "reverted" or what? I still have that "gauze former" inside my "new vagina", and feel nothing because it is filled with pain-killers", but in a day or two it would be removed, and I will begun with dilating.
Post Merge: July 27, 2010, 03:54:01 AM
Quote from: Robyn on July 25, 2010, 09:51:38 PM
Of course you are welcome, here, George.
I'm sure that this has been hard for you, and I hope that you won't run into prejudice and bigotry in the outside world. Many of us do not look upon such surgery as a problem, but I think most of us here will provide what support we can.
I know that we have at least one other member who had a similar problem but who has adjusted well as a female.
So talk to us and explore your feelings as you heal.
Robyn
Really? Is her name Josephine? I met her as ex-patient of my doctor just to discuss options for my surgery. However, I don;t think I would ever want to be a woman. But, someone said... "never sway never"
Post Merge: July 27, 2010, 04:57:04 AM
Quote from: Osiris on July 25, 2010, 10:26:14 PM
There are lots of guys living with female like genitals. You may find some of the information in the ftm sections useful.
Remember genitals doesn't define gender so it's possible to make what you have now work for ya.
I'm curious though, the construction of female genitals require the use of a lot of the penis. How were they able to do that if it was full of cancerous material?
I agree that genitals doesn't not define someone's gender. It is in his/her brain and soul!
I already explained in my long message that cancer was in the root of the penis, so only that part was really removed. Other parts, especially its tip, were transplanted to feel "labias" and to make sort of clitoris.
Post Merge: July 27, 2010, 05:58:05 AM
Quote from: Laura91 on July 25, 2010, 10:46:56 PM
Welcome to the forum, George. 
My mom is half-Russian
