Hello Sis,
You've already accepted the challenge by posting and sharing with the group. As I'm trans myself my view on things may be a little biased, but my wife and I have been at this for almost 30 years now and we are still together, however a sibling relationship is a little different.
Quote• Would my new sister be terribly hurt if I use just the first initial (it's the same for both pre and post names)? This would make it easier for me to remember which name to use when with younger relatives.
She may be a little hurt, but if she wants a smoother transition then she has to be willing too compromise on a few things, and this is an easy one for her to deal with. Yes we all like to be called by our female name, but for the short term, it's no big deal, and it will help you as well. I've agreed to let some call me Phil which was my male name till I had it changed to Stephanie Phyllis (don't laugh) as it's the short form of Phyllis, but I prefer Steph. No big deal.
Quote• How honest should I be when she asks why people still refer to her as "he". I realize she thinks she looks gorgeous, but she still looks masculine. I realize that she hates that part of her so I don't mention it but I cry for her when she's not looking.
You have to be honest for her own good. Right now she can't see the forest for the trees, so go ahead, be honest, point things out like your make up is all wrong, your hair is wrong, etc... whatever it is, if you don't she will never learn. Don't be afraid to be honest. Sure her feeling may be hurt but it's better than if she embarrassed herself.
QuoteI finally am starting to feel financially stable and now I have a newly dependent sister. I resent the fact that she thinks her problems are more important than mine. I understand why, but that doesn't change the fact that six months ago I thought my brother was safely established in marriage and career and I was going to be able to start planning my retirement. Now I'm actually worrying about what I'm going to live on in 5 years. My new sister is just excited about her new life and doesn't understand why I can't give her more money.
Not knowing the finacial situation of your sister, I'll jump in and ask why is she even asking you for finacial help. This is her transition not yours, you should be providing emotional support not finacial, or material support. To be brutally honest Sis, she shouldn't even be contemplating transitioning unless she has finacial support in place that will ensure her transition is a success. I'm not sure how far your sister plans to go but the surgeries alone are a huge finacial burden for many of us. The deal I had with my wife was that I would never put our family in finacial distress over my transition. She has to do the same, you can not be financially responsible for her transition, period.
Quote• I feel guilty about what she has gone through so silently all these years, but I also know it's not my fault...it's not her fault, it's no body's fault but I feel sorry for her and I feel guilty and I know I can't take the stress much longer. We talk on the phone every day and every conversation is about her needs, her wants, her hopes and I end up crying by myself after we talk.
So who do I talk to?
You are absolutely right. This is NOT YOUR FAULT, and YOU shouldn't feel guilty, and you can't let your sister burden you with guilt over something you had no control over. One thing you have to do to limit the stress is to lay down some rules and one would be - I will listen to your needs and I will support you as much as I can, BUT you must be willing to listen to MY needs so that I will be able to support you as much as I can. It's a two way street, and if she can't agree to that, then bluntly tell her that the phone conversations will be very brief. To help you through this you may want to talk to a therapist for your own piece of mind. My wife did, and after a few sessions she feels she will probably stop going. It did the trick for her, just having someone to talk to face to face.
Here is a web site that you may find really helpful.
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/tgso1/Transsexuals are not allowed to post to this site, and it is strictly limited to
QuoteTHIS LIST IS OPEN ONLY TO FEMALE (FEMALE AT BIRTH) partners of transgendered men ( male at birth).
While it says " partners", my wife said that FEMALE family members are more than welcome. She is an active member of this site, and she encourages you to have a look it is a very active site so far this month there have been 128 posts. Check it out.
I hope that I have been of some help Sis, and hopefully you will say and be a part of the group and stay in touch. Take Alison up on her offer.
Steph