This is my first real post on here!!! and pretty long. Yes, you can call me Pretty by the way. LOL.
I'll try make my story as short as I can. Here goes....
I started talking to a lady I met through transvestites queensland in Feb. 2005. She was a real lady, she was 51 and we became instant friends. She understood me anyway and was the first person apart from mum who truly accepted me. I was living in victoria, she was in queensland. I was'nt sure why she was on transvestites queensland all the time, but I found out a few months later when I eventually moved up to Queensland.....
We got on so well, that she invited me up to stay with her a few days, I did...and we got on so well. I wore my dresses everyday in her house, slept in my nightgowns, without embarrasment, nerves or anything. It was a dream come true. She became my best friend.....and I quickly moved up to queensland to not just be with her, but to be myself and dress how I want in my own space. I had no more fear, guilt or anything.
Fast Forward to 5 months after I'd been in Queensland.
We are still very close, but she has other CD/TV friends coming to see her while I'm not there.
I wont mention any names but they are yound guys who she met on the net.
I get to meet a couple of them through time and they are TVs, not TSs.
She starts not treating me as a equal to them and labels me as "just a CD" and one of her TV friends oneday says quietly but overheard "Hes a wannabe".
Through time she would always say I was "just a cd". I was feeling isolated again and started refusing to wear my dresses at her place anymore. She asked me oneday why I'm not coming over dressing anymore and I said cause I dont feel comfortable, and you judge me, and you said you never judged anyone. How wrong was I?
She meets a Transgender lady in may last year, who has'nt had the full sex change yet, but dresses as a woman and is a woman in every day life. She looks nice but she still has the penis.
They become very close, very close and are like best friends. Time goes on and shes ranked her number one. She sees her as her best friend and I'm being totally resented. They cuddle each other, hold hands, etc. and try to make me as uncomfortable as they can. What this lady and I had so special is now looking grim was what I thought? I was'nt being jealous, just a little hurt.
I said to her oneday, what does she have that I dont, and she said, shes a female and your a man, your "just a cd". Those words hurt me once again. I felt as though I was "good enough until someone better came along".
Now, we are not talking, I walked away cause I was angry at her for resenting me. Am I right doing this. We talk, but only over the phone. It seems that being a CD was not the friend she wanted, she judged me from the start, tried to make me have sex with other TVs etc. and I could'nt quite make the grade.
I'm hurt....deeply hurt. Sorry for such a long story but I had to get this off my chest.