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Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« on: May 10, 2019, 09:34:22 am »
Well its been a very long time in starting this journey and i have no clue yet as to how or what will happen over the next months and years.
I came out to a few friends who i know socially and they were really supportive and great which is something i was not expecting from any of them, and this really helped me come to terms with who i want to be :)
I told my wife one night a few weeks ago, which has come as a great shock to her, even tho she knows i been dressing for over 30yrs she was not expecting this and ever since i get odd questions and some fairly snide remarks about it all, but I was expecting this and having been married for 21 yrs decided that time in my life is for me now, maybe that's selfish but i need to be true to how i feel and what i want in my life. I hope she accepts this and stays but with marriage and transitioning we can not be sure on what will happen as i can only imagine it must be hard for her as it has been for me.
So i have set myself some goals for the year that actually mainly focus on me getting back to having the body i used to have and starting my hormone journey to becoming Kalandrina.
April 15th i saw my GP for standard routine bloods as i suffer from Hypertension probably from being overweight. The results came back to show slightly high cholesterol at which i was offered medication to reduce the value only 5.4 but over the limit. I was weighed at 108.5 KG...time for a change i decided
May 10th having been on my diet and doing as much exercise as i can i am 101.6 and feel great, no snacks, no chocs, reduced alcohol intake :( Aiming for end of May at around 95KG and a waist drop of 4 inches
June i plan to visit my GP for GiC referral, and also get her onside for my blood tests, and also hope to get off my hypertension meds and reduce my cholestrol and also register with GenderGP so i can sort things out privately. Aiming for 90KG
July start my hormones via private practise... hoping to loose more weight

Telling the rest of my family and my son will be hardest steps.

Goals and Milestones i will update as i move through this great change in life :) Ideally i want to get back to 70-75KG by Xmas :)
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life


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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #1 on: May 10, 2019, 01:02:28 pm »
Thank you Kalandrina for starting this journal.  It will be a source for you to revisit and see the changes that you experience.  Though everyone is different, it may also be a source for someone in your similar situation and gain insight to their needs.
I will be looking forward to your updates.

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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #2 on: May 17, 2019, 06:23:06 am »
My first laser session is booked now for the 4th of July :)

Weight down to 100.5 so close to double figures  :)
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life


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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #3 on: May 17, 2019, 06:42:30 am »
Awesome.



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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #4 on: June 09, 2019, 04:32:36 am »
Well today i am down to 97 KG, and able to get to 4miles on treadmill. Tried on some my skirts for summer but they now all too big :( In fact so are all my Jeans...belts needed. I dropped from 42inch waist to 38 now, so feeling amazing. Not been this size since i had a personal trainer 12 years ago. Ordered a new bicycle, had to get ladies one as its purple, and didn't like the male colour.
Had to put clothes buying on hold till i get to my preferred weight, but a clear-out of clothes is due soon.

Laser starts properly on 9th July and have first 3 sessions booked. cannot wait.

Therapy on 12th June and hopefully hit my target of 90KG by end of July, then i can start my HRT :) Made a promise to my best friend that i would hit 90KG before i would start HRT as an incentive to keep up the weight loss, and also to take part in a 5Km run before Xmas and a 10Km run early in the new year.

Saw my GP last week who has been amazing, she wont do a shared care plan but will refer me to GIC and also do my bloods when requested by Gender GP which is awesome news. Waiting on first set of blood to come back now see if i dropped my cholesterol enough and on the right path away from being close to diabetic.

Kally
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life


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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #5 on: June 09, 2019, 06:18:51 am »
Hi Kally,

That's fantastic girl!! Congrats!! All your hard work is going to pay off BIG TIME!!

I've been trying to lose a lot of weight too, but there's a huge problem for me. I have severe degenerative disc disease which hinders me from exercising. I'm only able to stand for about 3 or 4 minutes before the pain becomes unbearable. So what I've been doing is standing up and moving around as much as possible til my back is screaming at me, then sitting back down. Once my back eases up I rinse and repeat. I guess you'd call it like quick cardio or something. I told my doctor that I had planned to exercise like that before I started and he's fine with it. He just urged me to be cautious that I don't throw my back completely out, because then I'll be bedridden for over a week.

Oh and I've been watching what I eat. Most days I've been sticking to eating salads. But they're probably not considered normal salads by most people, because I'm the world's pickiest eater. My only ingredients are lettuce, extra sharp shredded cheddar cheese, a few of those tiny little tomatoes, and a little bit of thinly sliced sandwich chicken, with some fat free french dressing. Lettuce makes up about 80% of the salad. For me it's pretty filling which keeps me from snacking between meals.

Hopefully the weight will start falling off soon. By the way I LOVE the way your weight sounds in kilos. When I first read your weight I thought holy <poo> you must be tiny at only 108 lbs. hahaha...then I reread it and saw that it was in kilos instead of pounds. The best sounding way to measure weight though has to be in stone. For example I only weight 19.6 stone. ;D ;D ;D

Keep up the good work,

xoxo
Lexxi

P.S. I hope that last part gave you a little giggle this morning.  ;)
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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #6 on: June 09, 2019, 07:14:23 am »
Kally- amazing progress. And as above a great log of the achievement made. Exciting to have booked in the laser treatment. You are brace too in telling some close friends well done. Hopefully with time your wife will see you are in a better place and you can be really close mates .

Erin x

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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #7 on: June 21, 2019, 06:21:37 am »
Had an email this morning that i am all good to go and that my blood work was fine and my therapy meeting confirmed what i knew. Just a few bits of paperwork to do and sort out medications.
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life


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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #8 on: July 04, 2019, 11:19:33 am »
Yay, all approved and just waiting on my prescription for my medication to be sent over :)
Now all i need to do is get under 90KG and the real journey can begin, and i am so excited  :)
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life


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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #9 on: July 04, 2019, 12:01:44 pm »
Kalandrina... Losing weight is one of the biggest factors in making me feel good about myself. Going from 135kg to 95kg. Just being able to wear non polyester natural fiber clothes is a plus. My wife shops at Lane Bryant and I hate her clothes. i shop at Venus. Being in the closet does so much to shut down our lives. We tend to withdraw, become bitter, depressed, our self worth is questioned. I could not operate under those circumstances any longer. I knew I could no longer cover up without doing more harm than good to our relationship. I lost my first wife because I cross dressed. Jo, my second has known for the 35 years we have been married. But I didn't pursue transition until just over three years ago due to heart problems which ironically indicate my exposure to massive female hormones while in the womb. I hope everything turns out as you imagined it. It is tuff to know you are risking a relationship you have spent so long working to establish. I can tell you, living the rest of my life as the person I always knew was hidden inside. is the best thing I have ever done for myself. There are no regrets. All the best.
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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #10 on: July 04, 2019, 12:28:18 pm »
My wife has always know i cross dress, but she is of the opinion it has to stay behind closed doors. So we see how it goes since i told her that will not be happening.
Weight seems to be the hardest struggle, cause at 23 i was 10st and 28 waist and 36 chest. Fast forward to 51 and i hit over 42 waist 17st and 42 chest. Now pushing to get back down to a size i know i can be but its hard work.
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life


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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #11 on: July 04, 2019, 01:57:38 pm »
My wife is kind of different. She does not mind me dressing if I leave the house. But does not want me to dress at home. Same with the kids. They all tell me to do what you got to do. We want you to feel better. You'll always be Dad to us. The irony is that we are not necessarily cross dressers. We are transgender females. I do not dress for sexual satisfaction I do it because it has always felt right. We just didn't know trangender existed until the 90's. I had a friend of mine refer to us as <transgender person>'s the other day and I went off on her. I didn't like being termed a cross dresser or transvestite either.
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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #12 on: November 20, 2020, 03:58:46 pm »
Well its been over a year since i started this journey and still loving it :) My wife is still not a 100% on board but she hasnt left YET, but we shall see in time. Spend most my time in leggings or skiinny jeans now i am slim enough and a hoodie or jumper. She doesn't have issues with that or my toenails painted or anything that doesnt give game away. Still baby steps for here and not pushing it :)
Tho she is happy with me having some hair implants to fill my crown and fix my hairline so thats all good
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life


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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #13 on: November 20, 2020, 04:17:49 pm »
@Kalandrina:
Like you stated, baby steps....  many times it is usually easier for others to accept the "new" you... and especially your wife to not see big all-encompassing changes all at once.
So far it seems that you are making good slow and steady progress.   I am very, very happy for you.

Thank you for updating your "journey" thread.
I will be eagerly looking for your next updates and other posts around the forums.


HUGS and best wishes,
Danielle


Well its been over a year since i started this journey and still loving it :) My wife is still not a 100% on board but she hasnt left YET, but we shall see in time. Spend most my time in leggings or skiinny jeans now i am slim enough and a hoodie or jumper. She doesn't have issues with that or my toenails painted or anything that doesnt give game away. Still baby steps for here and not pushing it :)
Tho she is happy with me having some hair implants to fill my crown and fix my hairline so thats all good
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Re: Kalandrina's Journey Begins
« Reply #14 on: November 20, 2020, 06:35:33 pm »
Hello again Kally

Glad to see things are progressing albeit slowly but surely.

Wishing you further success and happiness.

Hugs

Pamela xx






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