Somehow I have ended up with most of my friends being straight and cis, and the majority are girls. I know that a couple of the girls are bi, but really the people I hang out with tend to be all straight women. I enjoy being with them, but I've just been feeling out of place lately. It doesn't really bother me much, but I was thinking about this weekend being pride. I've never been before and was planning on going with a friend who unfortunately has to work that day. Anyways, I realized that nobody else I know has any interest in going, so I'll probably just end up wandering around by myself.
I love my friends and enjoy the things we do together, but I'm realizing that there is a whole range of things I would like to do in which they have no interest in getting involved. I would also like to hang out more with other guys, but I think that'll have to wait until I come across as more male, as being "friends" usually ends up with finding out they're interested in me as a girl.
I really just need to come out to them as being a guy, and to be honest I'm not sure what's keeping me back other than not having a clue how to bring it up. I'm chatting with a friend at the moment and keep being on the verge of saying something, but I just can't. So yeah, I'm sitting here feeling lonely and kind of stupid and thought I'd share.
