Well Ive been away for while.
I am back and there are some changes. I am now going to ask about transitioning. I'm going to speak to my doctor about it soon. I think the main thing that has been stopping me all these years is what family/friends will think. Well my partner is perfectly fine with it and so I am not going to worry too much about anything else. This is something deep down I have wanted all my life.
So there you go... I think I will need this forum more than ever now.