I'd much rather be infertile or impotent than bald and filled to the brim with acne and oil. Actually, that "side effect" of lower libido would be a blessing for me, because a big source of my own depression is how turned on I get by guys who are beautiful compared to myself, which then makes me extraordinarily jealous of them. It would be a good side effect for me, which is why I'm weighing it all out.
And I took a blood test a couple weeks ago, and the doctor wrote me a short private letter saying all my hormones are "normal", though I do not believe that he compared my levels to my height, weight, age, and gender preference. "Normal" in my town is being the size of a 40 year old linebacker, which to doctors around here, is the goal that every man should have (every doctor has the 10 Commandments hanging in their office where I live). I'm sure not paying for another blood test by a gender-friendly Endo, so I'm going to demand that my doctor give me the numbers to my blood test or else I'll tell him that I'm going to subpoena them through a court system. Ya'll would not believe how extraordinarily discriminatory the doctors are in my area, all the therapists, physicians, and dermatologists strictly are set out to make sure that males do not achieve a female sense of beauty and professionals that I am indeed friendly with in my area have told me this agenda undercover.
But thankfully, as soon as I save up the money, I'm hoping to go to Nashville and have a hayday! Even in Nashville, most of the professionals are biased as well, but I've found a good old list of gender-friendlies and I'm hoping they know exactly what to do. This truly is an emergency for me because even beyond how I cannot get a job until I have improvements to my skin diseases and craniofacial shape (employees have told me across the board that they cannot hire me with my severe diseases and disfigurement, and I do have health conditions that prevent me from working physical labor jobs), I do believe I have Acromegaly or Acromegaloidism, which is actually deadly. So while I personally wish the Gender Fairy (aka Health Insurence) would send me a big, fat old financial blessing, I have to generally accomplish the finances myself and it's going to be an extremely hard process.
P.S. I'm not saying that everyone should look the same or have the same hormonal growth or process, and the 6 guidelines above are only "guidelines" that leave out many facts and body types, but at the same time, even in all our unique bodies, big or small, hormonal balance for our specific weights, heights, gender preferences, and ages are truly the key to good health, both internally and physically, and that is the balance that I wish medical professionals would get an education about (or loose the bias.) Hormonal imbalances are just extremely detremental to both Transpeople or people who, like me, work in careers that involve physical expression and physical professionalism. But the entire medical field is both discriminatory against Trans as much as they are people who work in media fields; surprising but true. Medial professionals are so extremely jealous of the normal folk they can cure.
Just so happens I'm Trans as well, which sort of pounds on the reasons I need to have a professional appearance. Ugh, I just can't stand having truly extreme skin and extreme facial features, it's one of the most detrimental restrictions a Trans can have in leading their own life. You can escape your family, your town, your career, ect ect, but you can't escape your body, and to me it just makes me feel like dying. And hardly anyone understands because every religious person says 'You're a man, you're not supposed to care about that, your hormones are fine, just like the linebackers in prison who punch walls. That's what your goal should be.' I'm so tired of wasting my hard earned money on these whackos.
