Hi everyone, Amy Michelle here. As like the majority my story is similar. It was around 8 I believe when I first started noticing I was feeling different, I was attracted to my sister's and mom's clothes. I could not understand why my sister got pretty dresses and I got jeans and t-shirts. I would often try on their panties, hose, shoes, or what ever they had left in the bath room where our washer and dryer was also in. Got caught couple of times with the panty hose on and was scolded for it. Move on up to my teen years I continued doing it but was little more careful and always waited till everyone was gone and would dress up for a few minutes and just as quickly I dressed I undressed for I didn't want to get caught. Tried using makeup during that time and lets just say a 5 year old could have applied it better LOL. I was caught a couple of times of hiding bras and panties under my mattress in my bedroom and I got lectured again on what I was and should be wearing that stuff and also was accused of being gay. I really slowed down with the dressing after that and in my early 20's I stopped completely, for the next 15 years I tried my hardest to be the man I was told I was to be, but this only lead me into depression and it kept getting deeper so I sought out help but not for my gender identity but for the depression and I have kept that aspect of my life from the therapist as I figured I would get the lecture that I always got from my parents. Even though I been going to the therapist I still am depressed and just over the last couple of weeks I came to realize why, I'm living a life that isn't what I'm suppose to be so I decided it was time for me to be me and I have decided it's time to transition to who I am and be happy for the rest of my life instead of living this lie. I don't have any real pics of me yet which I will after first of Aug as I met a sister that was online that lived near me is willing to help to give me a makeover. The only pics I have are made from a recent male pic of me that I used in a virtual makeover program online. I didn't do anything to the base pic just added the makeup and hair and I must say I was stunned to how I looked. If any of you all are from around Lexington KY I would appreciate some advice on therapist and doctors to see about getting on hormones asap. Thanks xoxox Amy Michelle
